HATE THAT I LOVE YOU

(10) I REGRET...

Jason Hartman's POV

I watched my Brother-in-law sat beside my sister's bed and held her hand. He kissed her fingers with teary-eyed. He kept on calling her name. He was in a bad shape. In just half day he looked so different. The cool and calm Micharael Nickko La Vierda disappeared

She was really an idiot.

Jumping into conclusions and not letting him explain his side made a big misunderstanding between them.

He looked at me. I turned around and left the room without saying a thing.

Not having a chance to carry her child was in good timing. If only she was pregnant, her chance to live was little. There will be only 10% percent of surviving. Bad fall and excessive loss of blood could be the cause of death.

"Feeling ko pinapatay mo na ate mo sa pag-iisip mo ng malalim na 'yan." She said.

"Really? Tinnyah?" I mocked.

"Tatchi or taychii sabi eh!" Narrowed her eyes. "Whatever." I started to walk as I fixed my stethoscope.

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Shaira's POV

I woke up. No one was here except me. Napahawak ako sa tiyan ko. "You're still inside Mommy's womb, right baby?" I asked. After a minute, I found myself crying.

"Ate? Stop crying that won't be good for you." I looked at Jason. I didn't hear him coming in. "Tell me, My baby is safe. Please. My baby is still inside my tummy. Please." I pleaded. He shooked his head that made my shoulders fell. "In the first place, You didn't have a baby. You weren't pregnant at all."

"Y-you're lying! I-I'd experienced the signs! You are just telling me that for me not to blame myself for my baby's lost! I knew. I ha-had a baby..." The last words were like a whisper. "No. You really didn't conceive."

"How could you say that?! I hate you! You didn't save my baby! You are a worthless doctor! You didn't do your best! You didn't. You didn't."

"There was no baby to save in the first place, Vheneese. Stop making yourself believe in what you want. This is the truth. Face the reality. You weren't pregnant."

"Hah! I know more than anyone that I..."

"You can't be pregnant!" He shouted.

"W-what? But-but why?"

"We're still doing some tests on you. I'm leaving." Then he left.

I couldn't get pregnant?

I'm useless then!

I started to cry my heart out. I couldn't be a mother I've dreamt of. Everything started to be ruined.

"Sha-shaira?" Narinig kong tawag niya. Hindi ko siya hinarap. Ayoko siyang makita. Tinaas niya ang ulo ko para masalubong ko ang tingin niya. I looked away. "I'm sorry." He said. I looked at him. "Sorry? Sorry for what? For cheating me? You won't expect me to do that now. Not now. Please, get out. You are the last person I wanted to see now. Go!" He didn't move. "Don't give me that look! Pity from you is the last thing I've ever wanted from you." He shooked his head but still remained silent. "Oh! Have you regretted marrying me now? Marrying someone can't give you a child? Or you knew this from the beggining that's why you were cheating on me? You were fucking cheap hoes to give you children. Sorry ha? Hindi kita mabibigyan ng mga anak kaya huwag kang mag-alala yung kasal natin ipapawalang bisa ko na. Now, GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE!"

He was still there looking at me.

"GET THE FUCK OUT!"

Then again I was left alone.

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"No. Please, Mom! Lemme see my wife. Please." Sigaw niya sa labas.

"Don't you really want to talk to him? A month is enough baby. It's time to hear his side." Hindi ko pinakinggan si Mama. Paakyat na ako sa hagdan ng makasalubong ko si Jason.

"Your problems won't solve theirselves. Stop running away and face it, Vheneese."

*

Matagal kong pinag-isipan ang sinabi ng kapatid ko.

Itinago ko ang divorce papers sa cabinet ko. I've made up my mind. Kakausapin ko na siya.

*

"Wife!" He run to me. He was about to hug me when I stopped him. "Sorry."

"Let's talk."

*

"The scent and the lipstick you saw on my shirt was from my mom." Sisingit sana ako sa kanya ng nilakasan niya ang boses niya. "Wait. I'll call mom to prove it to you." Then he dialled some numbers on his phone.

"Hello mom?.. Yes, I'm with her. Can you explain everything to her?...Yeah. Here she is." He handed me the phone.

"Hello?"

"Ow, Shaira darling. How are you? Sorry if I didn't visit you in the hospital. I flew back in America that same night. I felt bad for being the reason why you and my son had misunderstanding but true to his words. He really didn't cheat on you. I called him to come over and to bid our byes in personal. I kissed him all over his face and since my perfume was strong the scent left to him. I'm sorry daughter but you must have more trust on my son. He trully loves you."

"Thanks mom. I'll do." Then hunged up the phone.

I looked at him. I couldn't stop myself from laughing.

"She didn't change. Hindi man lang ako binigyan ng chance makapagsalita."

"So, are we.....?"

"What?"

"Okay now?"

"I'll think about it first."

Para siyang pinagsakluban ng langit at lupa. Haha.

Now I regretted being too stupid for not letting him explain his side and running away from him for a month.

"Go home early. I'll cook dinner."

Tinitigan niya ako ng matagal tapos ngumiti siya. In just a second he was on front of me. He stood me up and pulled against him. He hugged me tightly. I cried against his chest. I missed this bastard.