Its scary what I can do to myself. What a smile or laugh can hide. Its scary what goes on in my head. Its terrifying what I do to myself when I'm alone. I don't actively want to die. But if I was crossing the street and a semi was raceing towards me.... I can't promise I'd jump out if the way. But I smile so bright I laugh so loud. My eyes... They are dull, lifeless but
No one notices. I... I wish they did. I wish when I tried to get attention I didn't come off as just needy. I try so hard not to be annoying I try so hard... But I fail. I'm nothing special.... I'm just... Here.
