Depression isn't always crying and screaming at 3 am. Sometimes its when your in the middle of laughing with friends and you just stop. It just kicks you in the gut and you double over in pain. You can't talk about it cuz no one cares. And if you do talk you feel like your a bother. You dont want to upset anyone so you sty quite and smile. God that Smile! Just look in my eyes! See how dead I feel! I feel dead. Like every breath is a chore just to stay alive. I dont want to feel this way but depression doesn't let up. Some days its not as bad but its always there. Hiding ib the darkness of your mind and soul. Its never gone. Its always resdy to kick you back down. And sometimes.... You dont get back up.
