At 4 AM with crying eyes and bleeding wrists I want to be able to hear your foot steps and come gold me on the bathroom floor with a bandaid in your hand to bandage my latest cut. Not have to keep quite and not even be able to text you cuz I'll get in trouble. At 4 AM when I have a hand full of pills I want to be able to hear you tell me to drop them and never think of that again. Not sigh and pit them up myself. 4 AM sucks and I wish you where here to help me when it's 4 AM
