Secretly Married : NERD BECOMES CASANOVA

Chapter 41

(Christof's POV)

"Tch, you shouldn't have gone to school, Steph." I told her. I know that the cold side of me is coming out again. But f*ck do I care? I cant help it. All the emotions are mixing up inside me. I dont know if I should show her that I'm worried about her or show her that Im feeling this weird feeling that I dont f*cking understand.

"Chris.." Stephanie said. I know that she knows that there's a problem between us. Obvious naman siguro diba? I walked towards her at iniligay ang tray ng may sopas sa lamesa na katabi lang ng kama kung saan siya nakaupo.

Tch. I dont want her to eat this. I'd rather buy a new one than let her eat something that Xavier obviously baught for her.

I let out a sigh. "Eat up." I said while handing her the soup pero tinitingnan niya lang iyon. "Tch." sabi ko uli at kinuha nalang ang kutsara para subuan siya.

This is what she wants right? She wants me to feed her right? She looked at me with her sad eyes at tsaka ngumiti ng pilit at malungkot. I know her too well now to know if she's giving me a fake smile or a sincere one kaya hindi niya ako mapepeke sa ngiti ngiti niyang yan.

Wala na akong pake kung may gana siya or wala, she needs to eat this even though parang si Xavier ang nag abala para dito. Damn fuck. He invested his time just to tell someone to prepare for this.

"Y-you dont have too.. I can feed myself." she said in a disappointed tone while looking at the soup again. I feel like she can't even manage to look at me right now. Alam ko rin naman na umaakto ako na parang napipilitan mag pakain sa kanya, but the truth is I want to f*cking do that right now.

Gusto ko siyang alagaan. Gusto siyang alagaan dahil alam kong may hangover siya at alam kong bago sa kanya ang pakiramdam na yun but something tells me that I need to give myself a little pride at magpaka cold na Christof kahit ngayon lang. It felt like natapakan niya ang ego ko. She hasn't explained to me yet kung sino ba talaga yung Exodus na yun at anong nanyari sa Black Label kagabi.

It seems unfair to my side 'cause I know nothing samantalang si Xavier may alam? It seems unfair because I want her to give me a reason but I wont get that reason kung hindi pa ako magtatanung, tapos si Xavier? Damn it.

I want to hand her the soup kasi ayunn ang sinasabi ng isip ko, but deep inside, something is just stopping me in doing that. Para bang may pumipigil? So instead of handing it to her, kinuha ko nalang ang kutsra at hinipan ang nakalagay na sopas doon. Damn feelings.

I can feel that she's looking at me. Tss. Thank yourself that I like you this much. Christofer Alex Reyal has never done this to any girl ever before.

Tiningnan ko siya and again our eyes met. She's looking at me as if she's trying to figure out kung anong mali. I gave her a blank look at isinubo sa kanya ang sopas. Napalihis naman siya ng tingin at ipinagpatuloy ko lang ang pagpapakain sa kanya.

Matapos ang limang subo ay umiiling iling na siya ngayon "T-tama na.. Nabusog na ako.." she simply said at nilagay ko na ang sopas sa ibabaw ng tray sa lamesa. I know how she feels. Halata namang waala talaga siyang gana simula palang nung unang subo.

Walang imik akong tumayo sa ikinauupuan ko at tumungo na sa labas. I want her to figure out what's wrong this time. Gusto ko namang maramdaman na siya naman tong may pake. Tch. I have nothing else to do here.

"Christof" narinig ko nanamang sabi niya. I didn't bother to turn my back on her. Tumigil lang ako sa paglalakad ng di lumilingon.