sean lew imagines.

insecure

y/n pov
age : 16
6:43pm
monday

"she's probably using him for fame"

"ew she looks like a rat"

"acne oh no"

"has she been eating a lot lately?"

"trash"

"honestly, what does sean see in her?"

the same words keep repeating in my head. these word not only came from the internet, but also from school.

this morning, sean and i entered the school walking hand in hand.

at first the negative comments didn't bother me till they got worst.

some people had said to kill myself and others had said that sean doesn't deserve someone as ugly as me.

it hurt a lot. it felt like someone just slapped my face.

thinking about all the negativity led me to looking at myself in the mirror and pointed out my many flaws and started to realize that people are right about me.

i had some acne and just looking at my body makes me feel even more insecure. i didn't really have a lexee smith type of body and i think sean would prefer someone like that.

sean has been getting a lot of hate and started losing some followers because of me. it didn't bother him but it bothered me, knowing that i'm affecting his reputation.

i started to think about what i can do to help him stop getting hate and to stop losing followers but once i thought about it, tears were threatening to pour out.

i have to break up with him.

9:10pm
monday
location: park

i called sean and told him to meet me at the park. as much as i hated to even think about what i'm about to do, it had to be done.

when it comes to people i love im really selfless.

as i'm thinking about what i'm going to say i felt a pair of arm wrap behind my waist.

"hey y/n" he says as he places his chin on my shoulder.

i unwrap him arms off of me and he has a confused and worried expression written all over his face.

"what's wrong?"

"i'm breaking up with you." i said almost unaudible but loud enough for him to hear.

"w-why?"

"you deserve someone better. someone who's a thousand times prettier than i'll ever be like selena gomez and someone who has a gorgeous body like kylie jenner or kim kardashian. hell, julian has a better body than i do! ( an : yus julian is thicker than a snicker ) i just feel like you deserve someone who has all of that not me who looks like trash. no wonder i've been getting so much hate. i wish i didn't have to end it but i can't take it anymore. you don't deserve the hate. you need someone who's confident about themself not someone who's insecure like me."

it took me a while to realize that i was crying when sean was wiping my tears with his hands. he then looks deep into my eyes and start getting lost in his.

"y/n, i don't know what the hell you're talking about. don't listen to the haters, they're just jealous. y/n you're the most gorgeous girl i have ever met and i wouldn't trade the world for you. i don't want a 'kylie jenner body' or a 'selena gomez face'. i don't want any of that i just want you and only you."

i'm in so much awe at his words i don't even know what to say. i'm lost for words so i decided to express myself with my next actions.

i grabbed his cheeks and slammed his lips on mine and he quickly responded. i felt fireworks in my stomach.

after a while we let go and looked at each others eyes, smiling like idiots.

"don't let you're insecurities get the best of you y/n. you are an amazingly talented and beautiful person i have ever met."

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authors note :

slow updates, so sorry.

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this was a bad one sorry

im writing this at like 2 in the morning oh god

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