the beekeeper.

drained.

i've finally given up.
there's nothing left in me;
i constantly feel possessed,
like i'm not even here.
i've experienced levels of disassociation
but nothing like this.

this is like never getting any sleep
and being intoxicated at the same time.
those are the only ways i know how to explain it.

i feel like a shell.
all spirit,
all passion,
all fight and gumption:
vanished.

i need to wake up but i don't know how.