Why do you hate me?

Chapter one: Leo's POV

"This is all your fault Leo!" Raph screamed at me for fifth time since we got home. The Foot ambushed us and Mikey ended up getting stabbed in the arm, Donnie tending to him.

"Raph for the fifth time, I didn't do anything..." I started, but he interrupted me.

"That's right you didn't, because you can't do anything right. You're the worst leader on earth!!" He ran upstairs and I sighed, same old Raph. Raph and I never saw eye to eye, it's been like that since we were ten years old and Master Splinter announced who was the leader of our team. I still remember how it happened.

Flashback

"I can't wait to be leader, I know Sensei will pick me." Raph said display the most of confidence and I laughed.

"I hope you get to be leader Raphie." I said and it was truth. I always thought Raph would be leader, considering he was strongest out of all of us.

"Come guys, Sensei's waiting for you!" Mikey yelled from the dojo's entrance and Raph smirked.

"Race ya." He challenged and we took off, I won though. He frowned then he smiled before hitting my arm playfully. "I'll beat ya next time." I smiled and we took our seats as Sensei stood in front of us.

"My sons, I know you all have been wondering if I have picked your leader and I am glad to say I have." Master Splinter said and we all smiled brightly, we all wanted to leader. "My youngest son Michelangelo, I did not pick you. Not because you are less than your brothers, but because your skill are still improving and I hope you can understand." Mikey nodded sadly though.

"Don't be sad, Mikey." Donnie said and Mikey smiled at him as Raph and I nodded in agreement

"Donatello my second youngest, though you have a very unquestionable amount of intelligence I feel you are too rational in combat. Therefore I did not pick you also." Donnie nodded and Raph smiled brightly as I smiled softly, which might it was between us. "Leonardo and Raphael, the decision to chose between the two of you was difficult. However I have chosen one of you to lead this team, because I believe you are ready for the responsibility. Raphael..." Raphael smiled brightly and his face fell into confusion as Master Splinter sighed. "I am sorry my son, but I have chosen Leonardo to lead you and the rest of your brothers." My eyes widen in shock as Donnie and Mikey gasped happily and Raph frowned.

"Really? You chose me, why?" I asked and Raph growled and I almost shuddered as my little brothers did.

"Yeah, why Lame-o-nardo?" Raph asked and I gasped sadly as Master Splinter's expression straightened.

"Because Raphael your brother, Leonardo has shown excellent progress when training and it was clear to me that leader of this team had to be mature about the responsibility along with the title. Based on your reaction and your words, my decision to pick Leonardo was wise." Master Splinter said, my eyes widen as Raph clenched his fist and he glared at me. "And along with Leonardo's leadership, I appoint Donatello to his second in command. His mind is far more than capable to help during battle.That is all, I will see you this evening my sons." He left into his room as we left the dojo, Raph pushed us out the way and I ran after him.

"Raph wait!" I called out and he turn around with the angriest look on his face.

"WHAT?!" He yelled at me and I started to tear up.

"I didn't know he would pick me, I'm sorry you didn't get it." He growled and pushed me hard, I landed on my elbow as I started to cry.

"Some leader, can't even take a push. I'm supposed to listen to a crybaby like you? See ya, Lame-o-nardo." He left and I cried in my arms as Mikey and Donnie came comfort me, that day I lost my best friend and crush.

PRESENT

I sighed as I entered Donnie's lab, seeing Donnie finishing Mikey's arm.

"Hi Leo." Mikey said and I smiled.

"Hey Mikey, how's your arm?" I asked and Mikey smiled.

"Great, Donnie-boy said I was lucky enough that I was stabbed where I wouldn't bleed out." I nodded and Donnie sat next to him as he kissed his cheek, they've been dating for about six months.

"I thought I almost lost you." Donnie said and Mikey pecked his lips as I watched sadly, I wish Raph and I were like that.

"Relax babe, I'm not going anywhere." They kissed and I sighed as they pulled apart. "So where's Raph?"

"In his room, probably still blaming me." I said and Donnie frowned.

"He's still doing that, he hasn't stop since we left the fight?" Donnie asked and I nodded as he groaned. "Why is Raph such an hothead?"

"He probably has his panties in a knot." Mikey joked as Donnie and I laughed.

"Mikey, it's fine. I can handle Raph's anger, he's just worried about you." I said and I yawned, but I wasn't tired. "It's getting late, I'll see you in the morning." I left the lab and went straight to my room, taking off my gear as soon as I closed the door. I grabbed my journal and I started writing.

'It's been about an hour since I last saw you Raph, I know you're probably still anger at me for Mikey's arm. I love you Raph, why do you hate me?' I stopped writing and saw the dagger on my shelf, it mocked me softly as I continued to write. 'Sorry I stopped, it's mocking me again. I waiting for the words to come from your mouth: I wish you would die. Once they are said, I won't turn back.' I stopped and put my journal away as I checked the clock, it read 11:30. I sighed sadly as I slipped under my covers and grabbed the stuffed blue bunny Raph gave me for Christmas when we were six. I still love it, I hugged him so tight as I turned off my lights and fell into a dreamless sleep.