MY GAY BESTFRIEND turn to be MY MAN

chapter 39

On the other side of the world…

SEOUL, SOUTH KOREA

Casey’s pov

                It’s my time to shine. Ano nga mga plano ko sa tamang daan? I mean sa tamang daan tungo sa pagiging isang lalake tunay na lalake. Haaayy … will I ever make it? Since wala naman akong ka moment here I’ll just gonna tell you a story. The title is baket nga ba ako na inlove kay Sydney? Katulad nga ng sinabi ko nagsimula lang naman yun nung one time tinanong niya kung paano daw ay may manliligaw siya at gusto niya ito. After I heard that bigla na lang ako nakaramdam ng kung ano. Alam niyo yun? Masaya ako for her but at the same time parang hinde. It’s a mix emotion but I try to ignored that I think maybe im not just used to it since ako lang naman ang lageng kasama ni Sydney. And then at that time na ni introduce na niya sa amen si papa dammy. Ang wafu talaga ng isang yun. Ahaha. Anyways anyways… nang Makita ko na si papa dammy I’ve realized… I finally found the one chos! Jk. Naalarma buong sistema ko. I dunno why at first I thought it was envy and insecured toward my friend coz she got a real good man and It was too late for me to realized that was jealous already. Jealous coz Sydney was paying attention to another  man. Hindi ko matanggap yun mga girl! Bakla kaya ako kaya alam kong mali yung naramdaman kong yun but I can’t help it so gumawa ako ng mga paraan para hindi sila makapag solo. Oo lagi akong nasabit sa dates nila, sinasadya ko lahat ng mga yun until nga ng napuno sila at nakahalata siguro e tinakasan nila ako. I was really pissed off that time. Nakapag solo sila sobrang pag aalala ang naramdaman ko nun. I felt useless and stupid at the same time. I kept on asking myself why I have to do that. I really want ti stop but unconsciously I still continued at hindi na nga ako makatiis kinausap ko si papa dammy. Actually I tell him the truth…

FLASHBACK…

“damian, buti dumating ka.”

Nakita ko pagkagulat sa kanya ng marinig niya ang boses ko sa natural na tono.

“what do you need casey? ”

“its all about Sydney. Please break up with her.”

Tinawanan niya ako. Mapang asar na tawa.

“you must be kidding me. Look… im not really into a gay relationship. I love your friend so better leave us alone.”

Tiningnan ko siya ng seryoso.

“I love her too… and its started to grow…”

Nakatingin lang siya saken ng may pagtataka.

“I dunno but I don’t want to see her getting intimate with other man.”

“your selfish man. Hindi ka pa nga sigurado sa nararamdaman mo but sinasarili mo na si Sydney and besides you’re a gay. How can you say that she deserves to be with no one else but you?”

Natigilan ako. Parang bigla akong natauhan. Bat ko nga ba ginagawa ang mga bagay na to?

“you’re right… I am a gay…”

“yeah right.”

“but I have a man’s heart.”

Napatawa ako sa biglang realization na sumampal sa muka ko.

“im a gay but I love Sydney more than just a friend… I love her as a woman…”