These Dreams

Our Love

I'm All Out Of Love -Air Supply '80

LENA POV

"Mom hi!" 

"Oh hi baby how are you? You sound so happy. Much different then last month. Everything going ok?" She asked as I was finishing up my homework and tucking Stef's note in my jean pocket as I saw Tess walk in the room.

"Me? Oh yeah it's good. Really cool."

"Well now. So you and Tess must be getting along and making friends huh?"

"Um yeah. But are you coming to visit soon mom?"

"Hopefully for Christmas honey. I am trying to get a few days off. Thanksgiving I won't be able too though I'm sorry to say honey."

"That's ok I understand. I know you need the overtime." I said sadly.  "Do you think you will be able to transfer here still?"

"I'm working on it baby. Need to get a few things in order and then I can start looking. But tell me what is going on with my little girl. What have you been too. Aunt Roberta said you are out all the time with new friends?"

"Yeah. I made a few and they are cool mom. Really cool."

"Good and you are making good choices I hope? No drinking or anything right?"

"Of course not mom you know I'm not into that." I lied knowing fully well I had been doing a little bit of it with Stef even if she didn't let me have too much. The one thing about her was she always looked out for me in the best way possible never allowing me to have my own beer or cigarette only sharing with her. I also knew she smoked weed at times but she never did it around me and said she stopped once I began her girlfriend.As I threw my books on the bed hearing my mother ask question after question I glanced to Tess who I could tell was listening as well.

"I know you are a good girl Lena you always have been and have never followed the crowd. But I want you to know how proud I am of you it's not easy to pick up and leave everything you know. As your mother I admire you sweetheart please know that. And your father would be very proud of you." Feeling tears swell up in my eyes I could only sniffle at my mothers words as I wiped them from my eyes now feeling guilty.  If my mother knew what I was doing with Stef she wouldn't feel that way but how could I tell her? There was no way but I couldn't break up with Stef. I loved her. I loved her and I had told her.

FLASHBACK

"It's such a nice view from here." I said to Stef as we sat on her roof at nearly 3 in the morning. Sleeping over her place had almost become a ritual for the past month and so had snuggling close beside her and feeling her skin against mine. We would often just lay together as my head usually rested on her chest  and we would listen to music drifting to sleep. By this time we had grown comfortable enough to see each other in just our bra and underwear.  Stef had been so patient with me never going too far as her hands would touch my legs and thighs so softly and affectionately as her eyes never left my face literally asking for permission. Many times I'd feel her kiss up my inner thighs leaving my middle untouched for now and it would make me nuts. It would make my body nuts and I didn't understand what it was doing as her knee would sometimes press into it causing me to jump a bit. Sure I knew what cuming was but I never felt it. Ever, and I wanted to with her. My hands were still a tad shaky when they would roam further south on her and the first time I ran my hands down her legs she had closed her eyes. She had closed her eyes the first time I was so bold to kiss over her bra, and down to her stomach. Swearing I heard moans come from her she grinned at me when I softly kissed her neck looking back into her eyes. No matter how awkward I was she always smiled at me the more we discovered how our bodies were responding.