These Dreams

It's Not Mine

LENA POV

"But it's not mine. I swear I swear it's not." I said as my aunt and uncle found a joint under my pillow and I had no idea how it got there or who'es it was. Whenever I did smoke weed which was not often it was with Stef at the beach, and she had not been over here in months. Where this came from I didn't know but trying to get my aunt to believe me wasn't working.

"Lena if it is yours just confess honey. Because if it's not yours then whoes is it?"

"I don't know. Honest. I don't smoke weed and I wouldn't even know where to get it. I promise you."

As she looked at me I saw Tess in the kitchen as she made eye contact with me. No way. No way did she do this but why wouldn't she. Of course she did and how would I look blamming it on her.

"Tess come here please." Aunt Roberta said as my cousin walked in taking a seat beside me.

"Yeah mom."

"Is this yours? Do you know anything about this?"

"No way. I don't smoke weed."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes positive. I would never do that mom."

"And you don't know where it came from?"

"No."

"Ok go back to your chores." Knodding her head she looked to me and went back to the kitchen as I let out a sigh.

"Lena it was under your pillow and I have no choice but to ground you and speak with your mother. I don't tolerate any of this in my house."

"But Aunt Roberta it's not mine I swear to you." Feeling tears fall from my eyes she shook her head.

"Well I'm not so sure about that. And Stef Foster is off limits."

"What? Why? She's my best friend she is my only friend."

"Because you are grounded. No hanging out, no going to her house after school nothing Lena. You come straight home for two weeks. Is that understood. Understood?"

Shaking my head as my tears ran down my face even more I nodded my head for taking Stef away was like ripping my heart in half.

"Yes ma'am."

"And if anything like this ever happens again there will be even more consequences. But you can bet I will call your mother. Now head to your room."

Feeling so frustrated I could only glance to Tess again as she looked away with an almost satisfied expression. The anger inside me was boiling at this time as I quickly went to my room ready to kick something. Really ready to kick something because it wasn't fair. It wasn't fair in the least and I knew for sure she had put it there for who else would do that. No one but there was no way she was getting away with this. Not if I had anything to do with it.

----------------------------

STEF POV

The day sucked way more then I thought it would and seeing Lena cry on the way home broke my heart. Shit, I had to think of a plan and think of a plan fast as I laid on my bed staring at the ceiling. There was no way I could let what happened to her in Ohio happen here. I had promised her and if we needed to make a break for it fuck it we would. Tess could spread whatever shit she wanted and using Mike as a cover I didn't want. Fuck, I was proud of my girlfriend and never wanted her to feel as if I wasn't. Never.

"Stef?" Hearing a knock at my door the last thing I wanted to do was talk to either of my parents. They knew I had been benched, they knew shit was being said but there was no way I was owning up to any of it. Nothing.

"Yeah?"

"Can I come in?" I heard my dad ask.

"Yeah." Mumbling I failed to look at him as he came in and sat on the bed. Thinking it would be my mother for she was the one who usually had these pep talks or whatever they were called I glanced to him surprised.

"You alright kid?"

"Yeah why wouldn't I be."

"Well, um I know you're upset about being benched."

"I don't care. Basketball sucks anyway." I said continuing to look at the ceiling and avoiding my fathers eyes.

"Ahh I don't know Stef. You love it. What happened?"

"Nothing just bullshit." Getting up now I headed to my window not wanting to have this conversation much less with my father.

"Well, the coach mentioned something about you having a foul mouth. Which I mean is nothing new with you but what is going on. That can't be the only reason you got benched. "

"High school bull dad. Tess is being a bitch and spreading a bunch of rumors."

"What kind?"

Still avoiding his eyes there was no way I could tell him the real ones. No way as I thought of the quickest lie possible staring down the street at Tess's house.

"Just about me sleeping around with Mike or whatever." I lied.

"Oh."

"I told the girl to shove it today and she got all crazy about it. So I got benched for not keeping my mouth shut. That's all."

"Well seems like you just tried to defend yourself Stef but you gotta watch that mouth of yours. Ya know I know it's hard. Your aunt had the same problem." Be laughed.

"Aunt Stef?"

"Yup I'm telling you we gave you the right name. She didn't take crap from anyone. Life wasn't really easy for her though."

"Why?"

"Ahh she had a different lifestyle most people didn't agree with."

"What kind?" I asked unsure of what my father meant as he glanced in my eyes somewhat nervous.

"Well, she didn't really perfer men. I mean she didn't make it public but I knew."

Swallowing hard I didn't know what to say at this point as my father continued to stare into my eyes. He stared so hard I felt like if I didn't look away I would break. Why was he telling me this? Did he know? Was I fuckin obvious or what?

"Why you telling me this dad?"

"Well I know you looked up to her alot and it was hard on you when she passed. And well my parents gave her hell and I just want you to know I'm here for you. That's all. Both me and your mom no matter what. I know our marriage is not great Stef but your mom and I love you no matter what. Just um wanted to let you know."

"Ok um thanks."

"And Lena is lucky to have you as a friend. But I'm sure she knows that. You're a good person Stef. Just try to remember that and forget Tess. She's not a good friend."

Unable to say a word to him I glanced to the floor and back out the window. Did my father really know?  Was he telling me I was like my aunt because he suspected I was gay? And if I was was he ok with it? Too many thoughts were going on in my head and I needed to talk to Lena desperately.