Forever

chapter 12

I had avoided talking to Xavier since lunch, and because of that, we had to ditch our evening swim. I dressed up in my nighty and wrapped on my bathing robe. After supper, he followed me to our room and locked the door behind him.

"Are you going to tell me what is going on here?" he asked, and from his look, I could see he was worried, and quite furious.

"Why did you lie to me?" I asked as I stood in front of him.

"I never lied to you"

"Well you lied to me about Simone. Everything you told me about her was a lie, and you knew it. You thought I wouldn't find out you two go way way back, and that my ex was the father of her child?" I asked furiously.

I didn't know why I was angry. I wasn't really sure if it was because he lied to me, as compared to jealousy. Was I really jealous?

"I didn't tell you because I didn't find it necessary"

"But then you found Derek necessary?"

"No. I didn't ask you about Derek because of that. Mia, I didn't tell you because I knew it would create a bridge between us. I knew you wouldn't believe me because you loved Derek, and you can't imagine him doing that."

"Well you not telling me is creating a bigger wall, Xavier. Just in case you haven't noticed. I don't even know why I'm bothered. Besides, this is all a contract"

"What do you mean to say?"

"I mean to say that your initial plan was for you to benefit happiness from this. And to prove to Simone that you have moved on, not because of your father. Besides, you were going to leave me after you proved to your father whatever it is you want to prove. Don't you see the effect you have on me, Xavier? And I can't stay without thinking of what will happen after this. You will get your freedom, and me? I guess it never crossed my mind what will happen to me after you make me forget about you. Forget you ever existed, when you know that can't be. Xavier, before things between us get too stringed up, let's be sure of what we want. What you want, and what I want. "Now pain flared in his eyes.

"That's not the ..."

"Just think of a better lie, Xavier"

With that, I turned around and left the room. I walked all the way to the beach side and settled down. I knew I had crossed the line, and I didn't understand why. I guess it was good I broke up with Derek. I was actually planning on giving him a second chance before I met Xavier. Meeting Xavier made me realise that Derek didn't have the qualities I was looking for in a good future husband. In fact, he had none of them. I remembered the first time I fought with Derek and he slapped me. One thing I knew about Xavier is that no matter how much he uses girls, he would never hit a girl. Not even Simone. He was right. He and Simone's past is not needed in the present and future. If I have to make things right, I have to do it now. I needed to know what I wanted. But it cannot benefit him if he doesn't know what he wants. What if he doesn't feel the same? I needed to be clear to him how I felt. About him, because I need to give him another reason not to end us like a tragedy that was written in the years of Shakespeare.

I got up and turned around, and I bumped into someone. I looked up and found his handsome face. Before I could say anything, his lips crashed on mine, and I could see Anna from the corner of my eye. She was standing at the balcony sipping her coffee and smiling down at us.

I finally pulled back.

"Xavier I'm..." he placed a finger on my lips to shoot me.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry I didn't tell you the truth about Simone. I promise not to hide anything from you again. This time I mean it" he muttered, his forehead resting on mine. I wound my fingers in his dark hair and held his face to mine.