Dan Howell x Reader | Chris' Sister

Vidcon

Woo back at it again my friends! Enjoy!

(y/n)'s POV

"I don't know Dan. Meeting the fans in person will be even worse that the last time." I said playing with his fingers. We were facing each other, lying side by side on his duvet.

"But how am I going to survive that long without you?" He questioned, drawing small circles on my arm.

"You have done it before haven't you?" I said.

"It's not the same, I hadn't met you yet." He said. He obviously didn't get what I was implying.

"No, not previous Vidcons. The whole... you know." I said burying my face in my hands. He pulled them away to look at me. Damn those eyes.

"And how well did you think that went?" He asked raising his eyebrows.

"Fair point, but if your fans don't like me, they aren't going to want to see me." I argued.

"But... I don't want to leave you. I don't want to loose you again." He said, his voice like a whisper. There was that damn ball of guilt in your stomach again.

"You won't loose me I promise." I said. Of course us loosing that short amount of time was my fault. 

He stayed silent watching me.

"I really don't know Dan. I don't want to be burden and cause trouble." I said burying my face in Dan's chest. He sighed. And once again, it is my fault.

It had been extremely hard to shake that feeling that I was weighing Dan down, even though he thoroughly denied it. I kept it locked up in hopes of it going away eventually. I know I should tell Dan, but I just can't bring myself to do it.

"You are not a burden, (y/n). I need you. That's how simple it is. If anything I am the burden." He said.

"No, no, don't put that on your self please." I said.

"And what? Let you take all the blame all the time. It will build up until you break, just like last time. Don't take it upon yourself to fix everyone else. You need to accept the fact that we need each other. That's all there is to it." He said.

How is he so good at knowing what to say.

"I know, I'll work on it." I said quietly, hugging him tighter.

"I love you, you know that?" I said pulling my self away to look at him.

"Yes of course, I love you more though." He said proudly.

"This isn't a contest ya spork!" I said, lightly hitting him.

"Yeah yeah whatever you say. Sore loser" He mocked.

"I hate you." I said, getting up to get food.

"No wait!" He said reaching out to me. I rolled my eyes and sat back down.

"So will you come?" He asked. He smiled widely and I laughed.

"Yes, I will. Damn dimples" I said, muttering the last part. He laughed yanking me onto the bed and I squealed. He silenced me by placing a smiling kiss on my lips.

We pulled apart and he looked at me.

"What?" I asked.

"Nothing" He said still watching me. I snuggled into him and fell fast asleep, held securely in his arms.