The Legend's Destiny

Scared

I don't get scared easily. By that I mean, not by a lot of things. I'm really scared of somethings, and everything else I'm fine with. The craziest thing I'm scared of is death.

No, not of a loved one or something. That would be horrible, but I'm not scared of it. I am scared of my own death. I am scared of

life.

Think about it. I am only 15. In 10 years I could be married with a child. I would be answering questions about my childhood. I wouldn't be a kid anymore. It's deeper than thinking "What do I want to be when I grow up?" When I'm like 90 years old my entire life is gone. All I can do is sit there and think about all the things I have done and all the things I should have done. It scares me down to my very core. Every second counts. It scares me to think "This moment is never going to happen again. There will never be a time exactly like this ever again." That's just the life aspect.

Death scares me way more than life ever could. Have you ever had phases? Phases in your childhood where you thought pumpkins were big oranges or that there were tiny people living inside you planting trees? I never had those phases. Mine were way deeper.

When I was about 4 I had the darkest thoughts right before I went to bed. At 4 years old I couldn't sleep because I was scared of death. What would happen when I died? Would I be in eternal darkness? Would I disappear into this thing people call 'Heaven'? Would I just go to sleep and never wake up again? It absolutely terrified me up to a point where I was afraid to live. Up to a point where I was so scared of death I was too scared to live.

Eventually I stopped thinking about it so often. I blocked it out of my head and never let myself think about it. Sometimes the thought just slowly sinks into my head and I get scared all over again.

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"Caelum, come here." I wake up to noises outside my room. I know it's Caelum. I just want him to hold me. To tell me that I'm never going to die. That I don't need to feel afraid.

"Coming, Scar." There are a few more noises and then a bunch of shuffling. Then I feel a skinny and warm body climb into my bed right next to me. I take a deep breath and smile. We just lay there for who knows how long.

Finally Caelum speaks. "What would you like to do today after training?" I don't make the slightest movement. I wonder, but I don't move. Something is telling me that if I moved Caelum would just get up and leave and never come back. "Scar? Did you hear me?"

"Ye-yeah...I heard you...um..." I run my right hand through my hair. "We could go for a walk around the neighbourhood." I suggest. Caelum just nods and kisses me on the forehead.

"Okay, you got a deal. Now lets get changed. Training is in half an hour."

It seems like every morning is the same now. We stay in bed together until 10:30 and then get ready for training. I think we're getting lazier.

On our way to training I think about Spencer. I didn't check my phone this morning so I have no idea whether or not Spencer got my text. I hope he understands that I'm sorry.

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Today we are doing some mire target practice. With only two days left until the battle, Robert is really making us work hard. He says we are going to use up every little bit of our energy on the target dummies and then after that we are going to do combat. So Even though we feel dead and drained, he's still going ti make us work. Awesome.

"Work harder! You only have two days left! Stop being wimpy! Use all your energy on those beams so you have to work extra hard on the earthquakes!" Robert shouts to me. He is probably yelling at Caelum too, but I just tune him out when he yells "Caelum!"

After about my 10th earthquake target and 15th laser target, we finally move on to combat.

"You always have to watch your opponent. You can always tell which arm they favour and what moves they like to use a lot. Memory is important. You have to keep up a good mentality as well as a for body. Everything has to be kept up and ready for battle. Even after the big battle in a couple of days, the danger will never end. You two will always be in danger. You two are the legends. You two make up the legend's destiny. Be wise with your choises."

Legend's destiny. It's all in our hands.

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"I'm exhausted, are you?" Caelum asks me. I belly-flop right onto the couch right when we enter the house.

"Of course," my ankles ache and my mind is having an internal race with itself. I'll tell you one thing for sure. Neither of them are winning. "Do you think we can postpone that walk? I'm seriously going to pass out for about 8 years..." Caelum laughs at me.

"Yeah, no problem. I think I'm about to fall into a deep sleep too. Super drained. I feel like my muscles have just caved in on themselves."

"Yeah I know, me too." I grunt when I try to stand. I'm going to have to try to make it upstairs on my own.

Halfway up the stairs, Caelum picks me up and starts carrying me. At first I thought he was going to bring me to my room, but in reality we're going to his room. He slowly lays me on his bed while he takes off his shirt and climbs in with me. He's never done that before. I blush, and when he notices he just smiles.

He pulls me close to him and I can feel his bare skin on my arm. "Goodnight, Scar. Sweet dreams." He whispers in my ear.

Everything is going perfectly. Finally, for once in my life.

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Hey guys, here's a quick note. So just to let you know, the beginning part is actually true (the part about life and death). It really terrifies me and I thought that it would be kind of a cool kind of way to look at things because I don't think I've ever met someone like that. So anyways, the book is ending VERY VERY VERY soon so stay tuned! :)

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