Mistakes ||Sequel to Party||

27

Leondre's POV:
I walk out of the apartment and slam the door. I throw the bag over my shoulder and start walking down the stairwell. The tears burn inside my eyelids, but I irritatedly wipe them away. I'm not gonna cry. Not because of this. I was just stupid, that's all. I should've known better. No one cares about me. They can pretend, they can make me believe, but no one really cares. No one loves me. Not even my mother.

I push the door open at the end of the stairs and the cold air hits my face. It was starting to get cold again, the winter was coming. Not yet, but soon. It' at the end of August and school will start soon. Yay...

I pull up the hood on my hoodie and walk over the street. I drag my feet against the dark pavement and shove my hands into my pockets. I feel my phone buzz in one of them, but I ignore it, I know it's Charlie.
I continue walking down the street while the thoughts are burning inside of my mind. The tears try again to get out of my eyes, but I keep stopping them. I have nothing to cry about, I can just blame myself. I can't blame anyone else, but myself.

People who walk past give me some weird looks like I'm an alien or something, while some other give me a nice smile. But I don't smile back. I don't have anything to be happy about either.

I keep walking down the street to the bus stop. Even though it isn't the place where I got beaten up, it still reminds me of it. I shouldn't think about it so much too, I just have to get used to it since I'm gonna get even more bruises when school start. And it's not gonna be easier now when Charlie is out of my life. Ugh, I don't even wanna think his name.

***

I sit on the bus with my earbuds plugged in, trying to forget about the world. Trying to forget that I'm still alive. Maybe I should have let my mum continue to hit me, 'cause then I probably would have been dead by now and none of this would have happened. I wouldn't have to be a pain in the ass for everyone who get to know me.

I turn up the volume and close my eyes, pretending I'm not there. Pretending I'm far away from this world, far away from all the humans, far away from everything.

I feel for you, but when did you believe you were alone?
You say that spiders crawled inside and made themselves a home where light once was.
Petrified of who you are and who you have become.
You will hide from everyone, denying you need someone to exterminate your bones.

Friend, please remove your hands from over your eyes for me.
I know you want to leave, but friend, please don't take your life away from me.

Living like a ghost you walk by everyone you know.
You say that you're fine, but you have lost your sway and glow.
So I stopped by to let you know.

Friend, please remove your hands from over your eyes for me.
I know you want to leave, but friend, please don't take your life away from me.

Would you let me know your plans tonight?
'Cause I just won't let go 'til we both see the light.
And I have nothing else left to say, but I will listen to you all day, yes I will.

Friend, please remove your hands from over your eyes for me.
I know you want to leave, but friend, please don't take your life away from me.

I sit there in peace, just listening to my music, until I suddenly hear a loud voice that make me open my eyes. In the front of the bus I see some familiar faces; Frank, Jack, Sam, Will and Houston. I quickly sink down as low as I can on the seat, in a desperate try to hide myself. I pull the hood further down on my face and try to avoid to look at them. Their loud voices get closer, but stops in the middle of the bus. The bus starts driving again and I carefully look up after a while. The five boys are sitting down in the bus a few meters in front of me, but it doesn't seem like they have seen me. I feel a bit relieved, but I'm still anxious that they might turn their heads and notice me. And then I have nowhere to go.

Another shitty chapter, but here ya go.