Mistakes ||Sequel to Party||

38

Leondre's POV:
"Leo?" I hear Charlie's voice ask for the third time. But I still don't answer. First of all I have promised myself not to talk to them and second of all; I'm pretty shocked because I really didn't think he would show up.
"Hey, I know you're in there and I know that you can hear me. I just wanted to apologize for everything I've done. I'm such a bad person, and a really, really bad boyfriend. I've let you down too many times now and I know that. I get if you never ever want to see me again, and I know that you probably won't believe me when I say that I love you. I love you so, so much. But don't care about my feelings, because I know that I've screwed up and that I deserve to be left alone. But these people who are standing beside me right now; your sister, your brother, even your mother. These people would do anything and everything to get you out of this room right now. They love you and care about you so goddamn much. I just want you to think of them. Don't care about me, but think about them.
I will do everything I can to make you happy and if that means getting the fuck out of your life, then I'm out, I swear." He says. Then his voice turns softer before he continues. "Leo, there are so many reasons to be alive today, and tomorrow, and the day after that, and the day after that. If I made you feel this way, then I swear to God that I will disappear right now. But, please, unlock the door. You don't want to do this and you know it..."

I feel some tears rolling down my cheeks. I've missed his voice so much. The only problem is that he isn't the only reason why I ended up here. School exists too. And if I get out of here alive, then I have to deal with that hell. Which will lead to even more cuts and I will just feel so fucking bad. Is it really worth it?

After a few seconds of thinking, I decide to break my promise and talk to them. But I will only say five words and then I'm gonna end this shit, forever.

Charlie's POV:
It is still deadly quiet on the other side of the door. I start to wonder if he's really still alive. But suddenly I hear the familiar voice that I have missed so much. I have been listening to his voicemail over and over again just to hear him say his own name. But now I can finally hear the amazing voice for real. I can only hear five words leaving his mouth though before his voice is interrupt by a sound that totally breaks my heart into millions of pieces.
"I love you too, Charlie." Leondre says slowly. I can hear that he's crying. I smile slightly for a split second, but then I hear the sound of a chair falling to the floor. My breath gets stuck in my throat and I get the feeling like I can't breathe. Now it's completely quiet. We wait some seconds and if you listen really closely, you can hear the quiet creaking of a rope slowly moving back and forth.

It takes a moment for us to realize, but when we do, I hear a heartbreaking scream behind me. It is his mum. I turn around to see her stare at his bedroom door. Her face is white like snow and she looks like she has just seen a ghost. Joey pulls her into a hug, trying to calm her down. I just stand there. The seconds feel like years. Everything seems to happen in slow motion. I try to breathe in and out, slowly. But it doesn't work. The panic rises inside of me.

I feel Harvey's arms wrap around me, but I don't hug back. I can't do anything other than stare at the door. Without that I can control it myself, I slowly turn my head to see Joey look at me. We have to do something...
"We have to do something..." I whisper. It's barely hearable. "We have to do something."
It's like I can't get the words out louder than a whisper.
"We have to do something." I say a bit louder, fighting to get my voice heard. Then it comes out as a scream. "We have to do something!"

Joey pulls away from his mother and gives me a look, like he has a plan or something. Suddenly he throws himself at the door, trying to break through it. Harvey seems to get it and pulls away from me, starting to kick at the door lock. Joey runs into the door several times, trying to get it open. The fifth time he does it, he actually succeeds, with Harvey's help.
He pushes the door open and I follow behind as he runs into his little brother's room. I meet by the most terrible sight that I thought could only exist in my nightmares. I'm not even going to describe it.

I see the fallen chair and quickly raise it again, placing it under Leo's feet, while Joey lifts his brother up so that his head isn't resting at the rope. Leo opens his eyes and without any protest he lets us help him. He stands on the chair on his tiptoes as Joey pulls in the rope, freeing it from his neck. As soon as it's gone, he falls into my arms, coughing for air. He has a red mark at his neck from where the rope was and his eyes are red and puffy from all the crying.

I wrap my arms tightly around him, stroking his hair with my hand. It doesn't take many minutes until my shirt is soaked by his tears, but I don't mind. In fact, I don't mind at all, as long as he's here with me.

***

I sit outside his mother's house, at the same spot where I sat when he told me he didn't love me. It was long ago now.
The sun is starting to set, making the sky slightly orange. I stare at it. It's beautiful. Leondre is inside, talking to his family. I think they have a lot to talk about and a lot of problems to solve.

Suddenly Harvey comes outside. Without a word, he sits down beside me, looking in the same direction as I do.
"How are you doing, bro?" He asks softly, his eyes making their way to my face. I slowly turn my head to look at him.
"I'm fine." I mumble back, looking down at the ground under us.
"You sure?" Harvey asks, wanting to make sure that I really am okay. I nod.
"It has been some exhausting days." He continues slowly, looking back up at the sky again. I just nod.

It gets quiet for some minutes. We just sit there, staring out of nowhere. My breathing has gone back to normal and my pounding heart in my chest has calmed down. I can't put words on how I feel, all the feelings are mixed up together. It's like I can barely remember what happened. It's blurry. My mind is trying to forget.

"Have you ever thought about the future?" Harvey suddenly asks, breaking the silence. I look at him.
"What do you mean?" I ask back, slightly confused.
"What if we lose contact? What if we lose each other?" Harvey replies slowly, tilting his head, looking into my eyes.
"Why do you say that?" I say, frowning at his worry.
"I just- What if there comes a day when we don't know each other? I don't wanna lose you, Charles..."

I can see the tears forming in Harvey's eyes. I've known him for many, and then I mean MANY, years, but I never really thought he could be this emotional.
"You know what, Harv? The future is now. Everything we do right now will affect the future. No matter how well we will know each other in a few years, we can always think back at this day and laugh at the memories we have made. You will always have a big fucking piece in my heart, you know that, right?" I tell him.

He's on the verge of tears and it doesn't take many seconds before the first one escape his eye. I pull him into a hug, making an 'aww' sound. He sobs into my shoulder, making me sad as well.
"Hey, don't cry." I chuckle sadly, while stroking his back. "You will always have Mia, right?"
"Yeah, but she doesn't get my stupid jokes." Harvey chuckles back, squeezing me one last time before pulling away. He dries his tears with his sleeves.
"Oh God." He sighs to himself. I smile at him.
"You will always be my best friend, Harvey." I say, looking him in the eyes.
"And you will always be mine, Charlie." He smiles back. I feel so lucky right now. My best friend is here, my best friend's girlfriend is fine, my boyfriend is alright, my boyfriend's family is alright. My family is alright. Everything feels perfect for the moment, and I can totally live with that.

GUUUUYS! THERE'S ONLY A FEW CHAPTERS LEFT NOW. I'M EXCITED, BUT SAD AT THE SAME TIME BECAUSE I DON'T REALLY WANT TO END THIS BOOK, BUT I FEEL LIKE I HAVE TO BECAUSE IT'S REALLY LONG. BUT I'M GONNA TRY TO MAKE A CHRISTMAS EDITION LIKE I PROMISED! YAY! I LOOK FORWARD TO IT!! THANKS FOR READING, LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH! AND AGAIN, THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE SUPPORT! AAAAHHH, I'M SO EXCITED NOOWWW!

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