Mistakes ||Sequel to Party||

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Charlie's POV:
I fucked up. I fucked up so damn hard. But the worst thing of all is that I can't go back in time and change it. I shouldn't have gone to the stupid party. What if I had just stayed home and then nothing of this would have happened?
I lie in my bed, staring up at the ceiling. My sight is blurry because of my watering eyes and my mouth won't stop letting out heartbreaking sobs. I have tried to call Leo several times, but of course he won't answer. I don't know what I expected, but I guess I just hoped that we could... solve this. Gosh, I'm so stupid. I don't even deserve him.

All he did was trust me, he put his whole faith in me and I just threw it away like a bag of trash.

I take up my phone and unlock it. I take a deep breath before I dial Harvey's number and call it. Some signals go past and I start to think that he won't answer. I think about the mark on Leo's neck, it looked pretty much like a bruise to me. But he would tell me if someone ever did hurt him... Right?
"Hello?" Harvey's voice suddenly asks. I open my mouth, but I don't know what to say. Tears roll down my cheek as my mind go back to the thought that I've hurt Leo so bad that he actually left. I can't believe I hurt him... I never wanted to hurt him... "Charlie?"

I try to shake off the thoughts once again and take another deep breath before I answer Harvey on the other side of the phone.
"H-He le-left..." Is all I can manage to say. I can tell that Harvey is quite confused by this point, but I don't feel like explaining.
"Who? Leondre?" He asks bemused.
"Y-Yeah..." I reply quietly, trying not to sob. I blink a few times in a desperate try to keep my tears from continuing to fall, but it's hopeless.
"What? Why?" Harvey answers upset like he doesn't understand a thing. I mean, I was at his place like an hour ago and told him everything that had happened. You know, sometimes I actually wonder if Harvey even has a brain?

"Come on, Harvey. Use your brain if you have one." I sigh and mentally facepalm. I hear the familiar sound from when I get a text and immediately pull the phone away from my ear. Maybe it is Leo? I quickly open the message app full of hope. But get really disappointed when I realize that it's Mike. I almost throw my phone across the room in anger, but stop myself when I realize that I'm still talking to Harvey.
"Oh, wait... You cheated on him, right?" He asks casually. Thanks a lot.
"Thank you for reminding me." I snap at him. I don't mean to, but I'm just an emotional wreck right now so I can't really control myself. I mean, Harvey just wants to help, right? He's my best friend after all.

"Come on, it's not my fault that you cheated on him." The voice on the other side of the phone snaps back. Fuck.
"But you were the one who dragged Mike into this at the beginning!" I answer, anger filling up inside of me.
"Charlie, are you seriously blaming me for you and your boyfriends little break-up?" Harvey says and I already know that this is going to escalate. I can just cancel the call and end this conversation here, but I don't. And that's a very stupid decision of mine.
"You were the one telling Leo that he hit me at the party when he was drunk!"
"What has that to do with this?" Harvey asks confused. I don't really know the answer myself.
"You were the one who invited Mike to his fucking birthday party! You could at least have asked him or me! I told you when we finished high school that I never wanted to see that motherfucker again, but maybe you've already forgotten that?!" I yell into the phone. I have almost completely forgot why I actually called Harvey and I have almost forgot about the whole situation, all I can think of is anger. I just want to hit something. Really. Hard.

"Oh, so you are blaming me for this? Thanks a lot! Maybe you've forgotten that I was the one who fixed you two together from the start? And maybe you've forgotten all the times I broke up with someone, but you weren't even there because you were out on a date with some girl who was so much more important than me! Do you even care about anyone else than yourself, Charlie?" Harvey shouts. The tears are welling up in my eyes again. I don't want to fight with him, I don't want to fight with anyone, but I just can't control my anger.

I am just about to say something when he suddenly hangs up. I leave my mouth open, without a word coming out, as I listen to the empty signals. I close my eyes. What am I doing? Right now I'm ruining all the relations to the people around me. Why? Why do I keep hurting the people that I love? They haven't done anything, but I just keep blaming them.

Ruined relationship - check.
Ruined friendship - check.

Now I've lost another person in my life.