Trouble // Nick Mara AU

Eight

AN// 131+ reads omg its might not seem much to you but it is to me . I love you guys thank you soooooo much.

Josie's POV

" So now you know. Before you want to blame something on somebody know the full story. " Zion calls after as I slam the bathroom door behind me. People always seem to judge me when they don't know me. Not that Zion doesn't know me , he's my bestfriend but he doesn't know how things happened he is always quick to blame me.

Now time for me to go deal with another person.

" Jo you okay ? " A voice says when I already had made my way half way up the stairs. I turn on my heel to see Edwin looking at me with sorrow , pity , I didn't need it. " I'm fine. " I tell him , I didn't mean to sound harsh but I just don't like speaking to anybody when I'm upset.

I continue my way to Nick's room. I mentally prepare myself for what I'm about to say. Just from meeting Nick I know he can be a difficult person to talk to. I knock on the door countless times , no answer. You got to be kidding me ?

" Nick ? I'm coming in. " I warn when I walk in he's has headphones on , nodding his head to the music. I go up to him & snatch the wire out his ears.

" What the fuck ?! " He snatches them back & stands up before me. " What was that for ? "

" What do you know ? "

" What a- " His eyes light up when realization hit him . " Oh . Not much " He smirks. I don't know why he finds this amusing , its not. I roll my eyes at his behavior which is already pissing me off.

" What do you know ? I'm not going to repeat myself again. ' I poke his chest with my index finger . " Tell me. " I said convincingly , it seemed to work well I think.

" 2 words. Sexual abuse. " It was of hint of smartness to his tone. I try hard not to react to it but the urge to ball my fist is killing me. He is tempting me & I don't know why. Its nothing funny about that.

" Are you trying to be funny ? " I ask , he just laughs. Not a amused laugh but a sarcastic laugh.What's his problem ? " If you find that funny then you could kindly fuck off. " I spit. I walk away from him , I can't even explain how I feel about this. Since when it was funny for somebody to get abused.

" I didn't say leave. " He wraps his fingers around my wrist yanking me back into his arms. I look at him with wide eyes . I try to get out of his grasp but he's way stronger than me. " If you tell me to fuck off again I'll fuck you up. " He threatens. Now I'm the one to laugh.

I push away from him & surprisingly he let's go. " Hit me , I dare y- Nope I double dare you No I'm wrong again . I triple dog dare you to touch me. I swear to my little brother I will fuck you up. " I wasn't lying. Even though my father hit me it taught me to be tough. I will never let the next man hit me ever again.

" I don't hit girls , it not my style " His sudden mood changed into regret , guilt. I seriously think this boy is bi polar. Yesterday he takes me up stairs , no more than 2 minutes ago he threaten me now he looks he just hit a puppy with his car.

" You're either bi polar or have really bad mood swings. "

" Anyways it's not that I found that amusing I didn't mean to make it seem that way. I found it amusing that you forgot . You were fucked up. " He admits. He could be lying but I decide to brush it off.

" I know I was. I don't remember anything. Did I cry or anything ? "

" No , you just told me some things. I won't tell I'm not that type of person. " He promises & slap me if I'm wrong for this but I believe him. They whole house would've knew if that was the case. For some reason I trust him.

" Thanks. " My phone rings in my pocket & without looking at the screen to check who it is I answer it. " Hello "

" Jojo ? " The voice makes my heart stop & my breath hitches in my throat . Nope , it can't be.

" How did you get my number ? " I look to Nick to find he's looking at me with furrowed eyebrows with his head cocked to the side. I give him a fake smile & excused my self. I walk into his bathroom & shut the door behind me.

" Jojo Just liste-"

" No how the fuck did you get my number ?! " Knowing Ace he probably told his friend that works for the police to try & track me down but I still don't know how he got my number.

" You must've forgot who I am. Anyways where are you Christian is losing his shit ! " Fuck Christian.

" Ace you need stop looking for me. Don't call me anymore please I'm not going back . "

" What the fuck do you mean ? Are you fucking crazy ? "

" Jason please I- "

" No ! Don't Jason me ! " He cuts me off. " You will come back from where ever the fuck you are & bring your ass home ! You're only 18 who the fuck do you think you are huh ? Mom is worried sick about you & you're saying you not coming back ? "

" God you sound just like him . "

" Like who ? "

" Christian who else ? "

"That's funny because he wants to actually beat the shit out of you. Me , you're oldest brother wants to fucking protect you. Instead of acting like a father like his stupid ass is supposed to he's threatening you're life. Mom is scared that he is going to find you before I do. "

" It's a little too late for that Ace . You watched me get hit multiple times now you want to protect me ? Fuck out of here ! "

" Oh you want to bring that up ? I saved you're life multiple times but I never told you. I always took beatings for you without you knowing it . You could've gotten it way worse. " Yeah because that makes it way better.

" As for mom ? Fuck her too. She used to cry all types of nights but what did she do to stop him ? Nothing so don't tell me nothing bout her . "

" They're our paren- "

" Nope their just my sperm donor & adopted mother." Note the sarcasm.

" If Ceon was here boy he would've slapped you. " He spits. Lord give me the strength.

" Ya can all fuck off. It's sad how he was the only who protected me. Where is he now ? Oh in jail ! Stop acting like you're the oldest because you're not. Stop forgetting about him when he's currently doing time for you. He's coming out soon , did you forget that it's been already 10 years ? Oh yeah because all of you don't give a fuck about him ! He used to send me letters & now I don't even get that because Christian doesn't want to give them to me. FUCK ALL OF YOU ! "

I hang up the phone after that . I miss Ceon so much . He wouldn't even let my dad yell at me let alone hit me. He always used to write letters telling me how much he regrets not watching me grow up. He doesn't know about the abuse , I could never tell him that. Maybe when he gets out as for now , no.

He was my father not Christian. Ceon would take me showers , feed me , protect me , teach me right from wrong. Something that my own father didn't do.

I went to go see him 2 months ago without anybody knowing. He told me he's coming out in a few more months & I could stay in his house with him but I left. I'm pretty sure he know's now & he's coming out any day now. He will come look for me but sadly I can't let him find me.

I can't let anybody find me.

AN// Heyyyy guys

Reminder: Jo is the only girl the rest is boys . She has a lot of brothers & all of them start with a J so that's why I gave them nicknames.

Christian is her dad but she calls him by his name.