Convergent

Tris chapter twenty three

I am surrounded by warmth when I wake, I snuggle deeper into the body beneath me and inhale the scent- only it's not Tobias's smell that greets me.
My eyes snap open and look back at a sleeping Matthew. Matthew!
What the hell?
What is he doing here cuddling me?!? I try to wiggle out of his grasp but his grip only tightens around me.

"Matthew, what is going on?" I try to remain calm but this is freaking me out. Why on earth is Matthew here sleeping beside me? I think the biggest reason this scares me is that Tobias just told me that Matthew is in love with me, and now I am waking to him sleeping in my bed.

"Shhhhhhh Tris." He murmurs and pulls me closer. For a second I'm tempted to give in and just relax then I remember Tobias's words 'It's clear he has feelings for you and I don't want to lose you.' 'I've waited so long to hear you say those words. I love you too Beatrice, with all of my heart and all of my soul. I will always love you, no matter what.'

This is wrong- I feel like I'm betraying him, and after all he's been through...

"Matthew, this is wrong-" He cuts me off by pressing his lips against mine.
I try to push him off but I am still so weak and he is stronger than me.
He forces his lips harder and harder against mine, ignoring my squeaks of protest. His hands are on my thighs, moving upward until he is on top of me. A single tear drips down my face and all I can do is whisper in my head
'Please, no.'
His hand slips under my shirt and more tears fall, it is now a desperate plea 'Tobias, Tobias, Please, please, Save me, save me. No, Matthew no, please stop, no more!"
Matthew grabs my hand and places it on his chest, I no longer have the strength to pull it away, he has drained all energy from my body.
All I can think is

'Why Matthew?'