Convergent

Tris chapter twenty six

After the kissing fiasco and Matthews ferocious apology I didn't know what to do. Here I was sitting in his arms, but I didn't want to escape. He wasn't trying anything, just sitting with me on his lap. That wasn't so bad was it?

I keep telling myself it's not, after all we weren't doing anything.

He leaned close and whispered in my ear

"You know if Tobias was out of the picture-" My eyes widen and I slap his arm as he begins to laugh as he puts his hands up in the surrender position,

"Kidding! Kidding, I promise,

I giggled and relaxed into his lap again, that's when I heard it.

"What the hell is going on?!?" I felt my ears grow red as if a child caught in the act of something he or she shouldn't do.

My heart started racing as my thoughts began to jumble and all I thought was

'I can't lose him.'

"Tobias, I can explain,"

"Please tell me you didn't do anything like that..." I want to say no... but I can't.

"I can't believe you! How could you do this to me?" I reach for him and mutter his name

"Tobias,"

"NO! Tris, do you have any idea what I have been through for you?!? I thought you died; I thought you were dead, for two years and yet I still waited. I refused to move on- to let you go, and THIS IS HOW YOU REPAY ME? I love you- I love you so much IT HURTS! I CANNOT BELIEVE YOU!"

Now I am sobbing his name as I pull on his sleeve begging him to look at me instead of with a stony glare outward. When he finally looks I almost wish he didn't.

He suddenly stalks out of the room and away as I scream his name.

My voice echoes off of the empty halls after him,

But he doesn't come back.

The cry starts deep in my throat,

First silent tears and heavy breathing until my thoughts start to jumble out of my mouth.

"He's gone he's gone I lost him I've lost him too. I have no one. He's gone. He left me. What have I done? What have I done?" A low gurgling sound until I'm full out bawling and gasping for air. Matthew grabs my shoulders lightly and pulls me into his chest, subtly stroking my hair.

"Tris, Tris, Tris," he mutters soothingly.

"You didn't lose him, he's still here. That is not true, you have him, and you'll always have me. You didn't do anything, I did something's stupid and rash that I shouldn't have, this is not your fault and he can't blame this on you. Not after he knows,

True he'll probably skin me alive," at this he pokes my side causing me to laugh a little.

"But it'll be worth it;

After all, I'm your biggest fan." He says with a wry smile,I lean forward and kiss him on the cheek, because I have no words to express my gratitude.

He smiles and says

"Now get out of here you lovesick schoolgirl,"

The things is, with Tobias, I don't mind the title. I follow him,

As soon as I enter the hall I know exactly where he went.

To the family tree room.

As I make my way there I know I'm right.

I hear from inside the room strangled sobs and a pounding on something,

I creak open the door and see him hitting the way.

I feel my heart in my throat.

He pays no attention as I come up behind him,

When he moves to punch the wall again I slip my arms around him in a firm grasp, and begin caressing his bloodied hands, while burying my face in the crook of his neck and whispering into his skin

"I'm sorry."

At first it's like the words don't register, he remains blank.

Then he starts to cry.

Seeing Tobias cry made me hurt, an ache all over my body, next thing I know is that I'm crying too.

Suddenly he turns around and scoops me up into his strong arms.

He just holds me there, tight to his chest and I feel the warmth come back into me, at this point I can't tell who's crying or if we've stopped.

And yet somehow I know things are all going to be okay.

Authors note

Ahhhhhhh holy crap guys It's been too long!

RESERVE BUTTERKNIFING TILL THE END OF MY SPEECH!

I'm so so sorry!

But more then that I'm ticked at myself and technology!

I wrote a really good long chapter about a week after the last chapter, and IT DELETED!

I spent aaaages on it!

And then I got busy with a play I was in.

I went to start it up again,

I had another chapter, good, not quite as long,

IT DELETED TOO!

Fiiiiiiiinally two Wattpad updates later the thing worked,

And I worked on it slowwwwwly but it's here!

And I have the next chapter partially thought out so that's good! :)

School started again which SUCKS Hahahah,

Eighth grade means lots and LOTS of homework.

So I'm pretty busy,

But I will update when I can.

PROCEED!

AHHHHHHHH *runs away from rabid Fangirls.