Hearts At War

"Y-yes, something happened between us." Sa mahinang tinig na sabi nito.

"When?" pilit pinapakalma ang sariling tinig na tanong ko dito.

"Patty, please." Anito sa nagmamakaawang himig.

"When, Brent?! Kailan may nangyari sainyo? Kailan mo pa ako niloloko? Answer me!" Hindi ko na napigilang sumigaw.

Narinig kong huminga ito ng malalim sa kabilang linya bago nagsalita. "The n-night we became official but babe..."

"No, I don't wanna hear it!" sigaw ko dito. Pumikit ako ng mariin para pigilan ang luha ko. Nung gabi na sinagot ko siya ay may nangyari sa kanila? So, tama nga ang sabi nila na ginamit niya lang ako as a rebound. "You know what? Tamang-tama lang ito dahil sawa na ako sayo! Sawa na ako sa kakaintindi sayo at pakikibagay sa buhay mo! I only want you for your money, Brent. I'm only after the material things you are giving me but aside from that, wala na! So bakit pa ako magpapakahirap na pakisamahan ka eh marami namang iba dyan."

"No babe, you don't mean that. You said you love me. Yung nangyari sa atin the other night, wala lang ba yun sayo? You told me that you will only do that with the man you love. Please baby, let me explain. We can still fix this." Nagmamakaawang sabi nito.

But I am beyond angry. "Ah yun ba? It was a form of gratitude for the things that you've given me before I dump you. And gosh, I didn't know you'd actually believe me when I said that. Those things are only for hopeless romantic dummies!" nang-uuyam na sabi ko dito. "They were all bullshit, Brent."

"Everything? Kahit na yung pagkakakilala natin? Was it your plan all along?" hindi makapaniwalang tanong nito sa akin.

"What do you think?" sarcastic kong sagot.

"I don't think I ever knew you at all. You...I can't believe you used me. You gold digging bitch!" Matigas at galit na sabi nito sa kabilang linya bago tuluyang ibinaba.

Niloko niya ako. Pinagmukha niya akong tanga. Ginamit niya ako. Binigay ko sa kanya lahat-lahat nang meron ako, wala akong itinira sa sarili ko. Pinaniwala niya ako sa isang bagay na hindi naman pala totoo. Ang sakit sakit, kaya naman ay hindi ko na siya hahayaan pang saktan akong muli.

I harshly wiped my tears. I won't give him the satisfaction of knowing that he had hurt me. I said those words for us to be even but why am I still hurting so bad?