Indecisive mess

a realization

* distracts you with a phil pic because this is about to get serious *

Hello there you reading this before I start ranting I want you to know it could be triggering to some people because this topic has to do with existential crisis type stuff.  So if that bothers you please don't read. 
And before I start I also just want to say I never really talk about anything really triggering here because I want this to be a safe place for all of us.
But this blows my mind and makes me kinda sad to be honest with you so I thought writing might help? Also I wanted to try and shed some light on this issue.
So sorry in advance. 

When you first wake up in the morning on a school day and you're starting to get ready... Almost all the time your first thought is
"Ugh I can't wait for this day to be over"
Because I sure do...
Or if it's a Wednesday and almost everyone is like
"Yes finally already half the week gone!  Almost Friday. "
And you agree with them because it's true you want this week to be over because you're stressed or just tired in general and don't want to wake up early anymore.  At least for the two short days we have off.
We never notice anything wrong with this because it's second nature.
We've been doing this ever since I can remember when it comes to school.
So no one really notices what's really wrong with this whole situation. 
Now let me attempt to clean you're glasses from the fogginess of ignorance. 
This isnt okay at all because most of our lives are spent at school... Which means we're all just wishing most of our life away.

But maybe we can change that little by little?  Start actually looking forward to some stuff at school????  Before you laugh so much your head falls off because you know that could never happen let me explain. 

You know you're going to be taking notes in a certain class?  That should be FUNNNNN
Because that's wayyyy better then a test... Presentations or anything really because you don't even have to think you literally write down word for word.

What about lunch??? Even if you have no one to sit with and you're a total loner or you're too nervous to eat because there is too many people around so what's even the point of having a lunch time for you? focus on having a little bit of free time regardless and just enjoy it . Enjoy sitting there staring off into space and never coming back for at least half an hour.

This is just a list of very little reasons of trying to help with what i was saying I just didn't want this to be so negative.
But I do mean everything I said! I actually enjoy those things.
So to keep this positive chain rolling leave me a comment telling me about what your favorite parts about school are.
Or if you don't have any tell me things you think you can probably start trying to like or what you're going to do to try to make your days better.
And I'm not saying after this under a 1,000 word paragraph is going to turn you life up side down for good because now you suddenly see the good in everything(even though I wish it did) .... I just want you to at least try.
Because I want all of you to be happy.
Don't worry I'm the biggest hypocrite I know but I will try to do this as well.

The next part shouldn't be as serious as this so hopefully a funny little rant or story will be next ;))))

Until next time BYE

Ps: hola,bonjour,hi you reading this after the part was supposed to be over you dare devil for sticking around.
I wanted to say really quick that I was meaning to update this during the week. I had honestly started writing this on Tuesday but I somehow couldn't find the right words. So sorry for being all late I miss updating.
Also I hope all this made sense please leave a comment I really appreciate it.
So BYE FOR REAL