Hey this is going to be a book of just tags ...random thoughts...rantz ....bantz and all that jazz
So if you want to know more about me this is the place to be
Hello there since it is mental health day I decided I wanted to share with you guys my experience with it. Anxiety more specifically. Now I never thought that I would talk about this on here because I'm very private and don't like to talk about it much. But, I figured I needed to write this to show you guys that what you're feeling...you're not alone. And I know when I felt like this I felt alone but no matter how many times someone said it would get better or I'm not alone I wouldn't believe it... But please try.
So I advise those of you who are triggered by this topic to stop reading now.
Okay where do I start? Haha it seems like there's so much. Well I'll start by saying that in general I'm someone who worries a lot by the simplest of things. To the point where I get sick. Meaning I get stomach aches that last all day and even with pills for my stomach it never really goes away. (Talking from experience) or sometimes it attacks my muscles and my arms ache. Or it hurts my head all around all day. And on the really bad days it's all of this at once. There was a point where I felt all this for way too long... Maybe a couple months . And with this I got so tired of it I just got the saddest I've ever been. I was in a very deep hole that I didn't ever think I could climb myself out of. I was if I dare say at this time depressed. But that's for another time I guess.
One moment I'll talk about in particular is one that is probably one of the worst experiences I've ever had with this. Now at this point I was starting to experience all the things I listed above constantly so I decided to try and do things that could relieve it. I did research and it said walks could really help. I started walking at least two miles almost everyday to let my mind wonder and it worked. For the first time something other than YouTube and maybe writing, actually helped. A place where I could just not think and everything for the time being was okay. Except this one time. It was at the end of the 8th grade I was under a lot of stress with not only school but my personal life. So on this walk I started to think about all these things all at once which honestly seems innocent enough. Well from this point on I don't really know exactly what happened it was kinda all one big blurr. But I guess all of it got too much and my breathing started getting heavy, I started feeling a little dizzy, my heart was going crazy fast. And when I looked up everything was in swirls like everything was moving. And I mean everything. I looked to the sky, the trees, the road and everything looked like it was moving. At this point I started freaking out because I realized I wasn't in control... I couldn't fix my eye sight. I blinked what felt like a hundred times to see if maybe it was just something in my eye, and I rubbed it to make sure,nothing worked. So I started crying uncontrollably. Trying to walk back to my car to gain some control but even when I sat down I saw the same.
When I got home it was the same for a bit so I was probably like this for maybe 30 minutes and I decided I couldn't hide this from anyone. So I told someone I trusted and they told me it sounded like an anxiety attack (not saying it is for sure) and they helped me somewhat.
I guess this was a long story short there is so much more with my experience with it and with this story but I feel like this is just enough to get my message across that again YOU. ARE. NOT. ALONE. YOU. WILL. BE. OKAY.
This concludes this haha. I hope this helped I really do.
Please leave a comment I love reading every single one.
Until next time BYE
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A song that reminds you if summer time? Umm ...maybe summertime sadness lol because it's right in the title. It's the first that comes to mind also.
Also don't forget secret project should be coming out if not tomorrow Thursday (sorry had to push it back another day) ...bringguaca put up another snippet for it today though! So if you want more information go check that out please.
