Indecisive mess

Ew that's so cringey

You're scrolling through your phone's gallery when you come across a picture of yourself. From 2 to 3 years ago. 
You automatically cringe and start questioning what you we're even thinking in taking that photo in the first place. 
'Ewww why would I take this?!' 'What am I even doing with my hand? ' 'why is my eye like that? ' 'why is my hair so...bad??? '
'This is so cringey omg why did I keep this?'
Then you delete it right after without a second thought.  From then on you may vow to never take another photo of yourself. Considering how cringey it'll be later on and embarrassing.  And you much rather not have a photo like that to suffer embarrassment from later on .
But what you fail to realize is that no matter how you look now... What you wear...how you act.. What you create..  You'll look cringey to yourself ages away NO MATTER WHAT. 
Believe it or not. 
And the truth is it's probably not even embarrassing in the first place!  So don't punish yourself in not doing things you want now. Just because later on it'll be embarrassing or cringey or stupid or ugly. 
Because guess what... You're beautiful in everything and anything you do. I can assure you that. 
Please don't give up on what you want to do or be just because you'll probably hate it later or someone may not like it. 
Because that's their problem not yours. 
But that's a problem for another chapter. 
Im going to give an example of something I find cringey that I did maybe a year or two ago just in case all my ranting doesn't make sense. 
So I'm gonna show you guys a piece of writing I did when I was first starting out. 

Afraid of my own thoughts
Afraid that I would get caught
From the madness that's in my head
To the pain that make me feel dead
Fear might be the cause of this
That I might not be able to fix
Because I'm my own enemy
I might cause the death of me

To me this is really dumb because I think it's really bad. 
I think it was inspired from doubt by twenty one pilots so much so that it has the same message.  Clearly no originality.  Cliché sayings. 
But you know what if I hadn't kept going I wouldn't have gotten a bit better. 
Pleasetellmeivegottenbetterlol
My point is don't stop doing what you want to do now just because later you might hate it. Because maybe just maybe no matter what you're gonna do anyway your going to hate it in the future. It's just human nature. 

Welp I haven't had a rant like this in a while so I hope this helped some of you reading this. 

Please leave a comment I LOVE reading those. 

Until next time BYE

Ps: I finished stranger things two it was too good for words I can't.  Also HALLOWEEN IS ALMOST HERE AHHHHHH SO EXCITED.  Have fun and stay safe guys.