Indecisive mess

announcement

Hey! So before I start this chapter I just wanted to say thank you.
Thank you so much for coming back. It means the world to me. I thought that when I would update yesterday no one would be reading and I'll be back to square one. Oh but how you guys proved me wrong. With all your "I missed you!" And "I'm glad you're back!" Comments it just really made my day. And made me feel a whole lot better so thank you.
Now onto the actual topic at hand!
In the beginning of the year my English teacher announced that there was going to be a poetry contest and asked my class who wanted to join.
Now this contest is searching for people all over so it's not just looking for people in my little area. Also it's in categories.
So one category is 6th-8th and another is freshmen- seniors.
And may I remind you I am a freshmen and I'm going to be up against SENIORS from all over. So I know that there's no way I'm going to win. Also you win 500 dollars and your poem showcased on the publishing company's website with the title WINNER. I don't know what came over me that day, but I got up from my desk after the bell rang,waited for everyone to leave, then went up to my teacher to ask her for an entrance form. She looked surprised considering everyone in my class groaned and made a face of disgust once she asked who wanted to join.
When I got home I read over the rules that said that my poem could only be 20 lines max. And a deadline that was reasonable. After searching through all my poems I came to the realization that
1.) I didn't like any of them
2.) they were all way over the 20 line limit and I didn't really want to change anything.
In my procrastination like self I thought that I would get to it later. Even though I couldn't wait to do it I thought it would be best if I did just in case inspiration struck better another day.
This is when I went terribly wrong. Because between this time period of waiting I started doubting myself and my abilities to just quitting all together before I even turned anything in. Instead of getting better ideas and maybe gaining more self confidence. As I was telling my family I wasn't going to do it after all they spoke up and said I should because "hey what's the worse that could happen?" So I ended up doing it. But when I decided that I should probably do it it was the day it was due! Sure, I had ideas and such, but I really had no idea what I was doing. I came up with a rough draft in maybe a couple minutes and decided I hated it but there was no time to spare because I had to submit it in! As I was submitting it in I changed a couple of things... well maybe a lot of things and long story short I don't have a copy myself of that poem,funnily enough. But not to worry I will get my copy soon.
How? You may ask well I got a letter from the publishing company.
Basically saying that they liked it enough to want to publish the poem in their magazine. A special issue titled
"Rising stars" that show cases younger people that they think have talent and can maybe one day make it to the top of becoming an author and selling their work.
So I'm technically a published author now?????????
HOW I LITERALLY MADE IT UP THE DAY IT WAS DUE. I'm still freaked out about it and that's because I got this news during Christmas break.

So yeah, that's what I've been wanting to share for the longest time with you guys. I still haven't shared it with my teachers because I'm too socially anxious but oh well. And if you all want to read the poem that I submitted I can show you guys a picture from the magazine when it comes in! It should come in about the time leading up to summer. So please let me know if you want to see it .
Also if you want to read one of my poems now I just posted one today! Please go read it and give it some feed back because I love that.
Alright thank you for your time. I hope you are doing well today because you deserve it. Take care of yourself💕
Until next time BYE