talking

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You know what's ironic? 
That me a "shy" what most people would call "anti social" person in real life talks to myself a lot. 
ALL. THE. TIME.
And I'm not trying to be a "trendy teen trying too hard to be relatable" (wow I'm using wayyyy too much quotation marks but at least I don't use my whole hand like Phil OHHHHH) 

Side note: while looking for this I had to search up 'Phil uses whole hand' on tumblr I'm not gonna say anything but we're all thinking it But hey it worked Alright SORRY SIDE TRACKED Back to the rant now my crazy duckling shoo

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Side note: while looking for this I had to search up 'Phil uses whole hand' on tumblr
I'm not gonna say anything but we're all thinking it
But hey it worked
Alright SORRY SIDE TRACKED
Back to the rant now my crazy duckling shoo

But honestly in today's world who doesn't? 
But what has started to come to my attention a lot more recently is that,  I not only talk to myself I talk to the youtuber videos I often watch for a lack of a social life. 
Yes you read right your eyes do not deceive you I talk to the YouTube videos I watch.  AS IF THEY'RE THERE. 
So it's just not the occasional chuckle that leaves your lips involuntarily while at a grocery store because you thought of a funny joke.  Or when you call yourself dumb because you drop something and laugh.
No no no it goes wayyyyy beyond those little baby steps of insane. 
this is kinda a problem as soon as some one walks into my room and I have to explain how crazy I am each time. 
~flash back time woooooahhhhh~

*watching Daniel Howell*
*Says something relatable like always that spork*
Me: *through fits of laughter* I KNOW ME TOO DONT WORRY that happened to me once-
*some one walks in*
"Ummm Connie who are you talking to? "
Me: "Oh well no one just this youtuber that doesn't know I exist"
"Youtuber?"
Me: "Yeah the people I watch from YouTube. "
"Youtube? "
Me: "Never mind I'm just actually possessed by a demon... That's who I'm talking to.. You know taking orders.  No big deal. "
"Oh well that makes more sense. "
*leaves and closes door*
Me: *pauses video to contemplate my existence*
~end of flash back whoooahhhh how do I do that??? ~
Okay that might have been a SLIGHT exaggeration but you get the gist of it.

And it's not only the videos I watch but also when I'm at the store I have this thing that if I'm by myself in an aisle and I see some one on the other side of it I don't want to seem like a loner I start talking. 
Just about something random.
Like of there's a sauce in front of me I'll be like. 
"Ohhh there it is that's the one we we're looking for, surprising we usually use the other one but oh well."
Then I'll usually end it with a
"There's Connie talking to herself again like a lunatic. "
Which doesn't help the case.
What if one day theres someone from school on that other side then they'll really know how weird I am. Which isn't a big stretch now that I come to think of it.

Idk I just thought this could be a more layed back, try too hard to be funny kinda rant for today. 
I hope you liked it please leave comments about how crazy you are that way I won't feel so alone.
It's just me isn't it?  Ughhh knew it
Also just leave one because I need validation and because you're a good person.
And while you're at it leave a cheeky lil vote, come on its right there, thanks you're amazing. 
If you want you can leave topics you want me to rant about.  I have some planned but I just really want to know what you wanna read. 
This book is soon coming to an end only a couple more parts. 
Idk if I should do another though pfffft haha

Anyway thanks for reading.
Until next time BYE. 

PS: I wrote a poem on wow that was deep please go check it out when you have time I would very much appreciate it. 

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