Indecisive mess

The thrill of it all EXPLAINED

Hahaha you clicked on this thinking it was going to be an explanation of Sam Smith's new album now didn't you?
Although he is an inspiration of mine so I wouldn't mind that one bit.
Well...wrong! That shows me you didn't read my latest poem where you can find it on wow that was deep. That's fine obviously but if you want to read this I suggest you go read that poem first then come back to this because this is going to be an explanation behind it.
Now I don't like explaining my work ...considering I guess it's some type of 'art' and I don't think art should ever be explained. Reason being, that I feel art should be totally open for interpretation. But for this poem I decided to make an exception because I really wanted to explain the thought process behind it and why. Considering this one is a lot different than anything I've ever wrote on wow that was deep in my opinion.
Alright let's start from the beginning.
The title came from Sam Smith's released album title I had read a while back.
Now I had already started on this poem before this information came out so I didn't intend to use it in the first place but it just sorta came out and when that did everything else fell into place. Because being a 'writer' you really soak in your surroundings and feelings and get inspired by them. And you don't even realize till you see yourself writing it subconsciously. So I guess you can say this poem was inspired by Sam Smith a bit.
So with this poem I went more visual with things I think I've ever had.
For instance when the poem opens with

You had purple highlights in your hair
That shows that you don't have a care

What I was trying to describe here was how she saw her love interest for the first time. And this is supposed to mean that the speaker saw how wreckless she was from the start so it was dumb of her to fall for her.
This is not only shown here,in the intro,but throughout the whole poem itself.
Another time was

Smudged eyeliner
Wing all askew
All just a daily reminder of why I got away from you

As you can see here it is a lot more clearer of what I'm trying to say.
Another part of the poem being really visual is when I say this

As the asteroids were barely missing your moon necklace
The one you always wore against your chest

Here I could actually see in my head the moon necklace against someone's chest. And it's not just the ones I'm picking through but this also goes through this entire poem.
Reason being why I was being so visual with this one is because when I write I see like a little movie in my head? Of what I'm trying to say if that makes sense. More like pictures rather. And I think this happens because I'm just a very visual person overall.
So for example when writing this I saw two girls in a relationship and I saw the boots stained...the messy nails and hair. Just all of it one by one. And what I do when I write is I try to describe the picture the best I can while trying to make connections with metaphors and such to make my meaning show.
I hope all that made sense. It's kinda hard to explain.
Moving on with the ,last but not least, the finale.
Which is:

Maybe you just couldn't hear right
Over what I thought was our rapid heartbeat with my body in fight
I guess I got lost in a trance
Of our lovers dance
That I would trip over our feet and fall
Maybe I was the one
In the thrill of it all

Now with this I really tried to build it up to get the reader as shocked as possible. So shocked that you would hear an audible gasp if you will. Seeing as it is the big plot twist with the whole conflict.
The whole meaning of the poem was about how the girl played her and tricked her all because she was selfish and wanted a thrill. But that all changes when you come across this stanza. Saying how the girl talking this whole time about how the other was so mean and selfish was actually her who was doing it in the relationship. So basically she was wrong all along.
I feel like I could have done the built up a bit better. I feel it's a bit rushed. But I think it gets the point across just fine.

QUESTION TIME:
what did you think of this poem?
What did you like/dislike?
Would you want to see more stuff like this in the future? (Explanations and poems like this)
Please answer these I need feed back
Alright I think that's all guys until next time BYE

PS:
Hey so sorry if none of this made sense whatsoever or if it was boring and too long. Especially after not updating in a while. I promise the next chapter should be a funny silly one hopefully.
I hope all of you are doing great 👌🏼
Again please please please leave feedback I would really appreciate it.
Alright nOW that's it
BYE