You're The Only Thing I Want. (✔)

3. Self Hatred

Dev left Ishwari's room to let her sleep. He was in dilemma. Unable to understand the situation. Life was always tough to him.... He never lived his childhood. Today he was a rich man.... But the poorest among everyone. His life was bounded with a period of six months.

He departs to his room closing the door. He collapses on the floor with the edge of his eyes blurring the view of his royal room. "I... I can't tell this to anyone." He cries. His phone buzzes and Sona's number flashes. Wiping his tears he picks up the call.

"Dev...."

"Hmm..."

"You're fine right!!"

"......."

"Is there something bothering you?"

"........"

"Please tell me"

"Sona... I..."

"You?"

"I.... I'm... I'm sorry. I'm a coward" his voice turns heavy with tears.

"Dev...."

"Yes, Sona.... I am. I am...."

"Can we meet?"

"No.... I want to be alone."

"What's bothering you... Tell me."

"No there's nothing like that. It's just Neha is about to marry. I'm feeling sad as she'll leave us"

"Dev. Sometimes it's good. You will slowly learn to live without her. And by the way, she isn't going forever right!! You can meet her anytime!!"

"Hmm... Sona, I'm feeling sleepy. We'll talk later... Bye"

He hangs up the call.

"No, I can't even tell her!!! No no, no damn it" He yells at himself. "I have to make them stand on their own. My family can survive without me!! I have to make them strong within the time I have." He thinks wiping his tears. "And Sona? What about her?" asks his heart. "She also has to suffer. I can't marry her.... I need to keep distance" explains his mind. He throws himself on the bed starring at the ceiling and eyes getting watery. "I have to make everyone hate me!!! I can't see them in tears..... They have to be strong even after me." He cries.

The next morning. Sona was worried about him so today as well she reaches his house before time, to find him safe. She entered the room after giving the chart to kichu bhaiya for breakfast. There he is laying on his bed with hands spread unevenly. She smiles glancing at the big kid. "Dev" she enters smilingly. But he doesn't respond to anything which makes her a little worried. She checks his fever and it was normal. "Might have slept late at night." she thinks. Slowly she makes him cover with a blanket when he sighs in sleep.

"Dev..." she sits beside him caressing his head. He smiles in sleep. She smiles seeing his innocent smile. "Dev.... Good morning" says she kissing his cheeks. "Hmm..." He sighs. "You remember I wanted to confess something.... It was about the kisses I secretly gift to you every morning" she smiles hissing near his lips. He smiles again. "Come on. We didn't have talked yesterday as well!!" she says stroking his hair. He turns to her, still in sleep. "Now stop looking so innocent." she pouts in a hissing voice. He slowly opens his eyes to find her smilingly caressing his hair. "Good morning Mr. Obhodro" she hisses. What more he could have had than these beautiful morning moments!! "Good morning..." He smiles rubbing his face. "You were upset yesterday... How are you now?" she asks gently. Oh no!!! How can he forget about his Secret!!! He gets up abruptly throwing the blanket away. Sona is shocked. "What are you doing here Ms. Bose?" He yells. "But...." she tries to understand the situation. "I don't want you here.... Just get out of this room" He yells leaving her in shock. "What are you saying!!" she was shocked. "We will talk later. Just leave for now..." He fumes. She leaves being confused at his behavior.