Sudden Love (Old Version)

I promised you

Jason's pov

I feel like I'm forgetting to do something, but I cant put my finger on it and its really bugging me.

I am sure it will come to me soon if I don't keep thinking about it, lets just hope it isn't something that is too important.

Justin and I not long woke up and we have already showered and everything because we were in a rush to cuddle.

Anyway we are now sitting in the garden because there was a little bit of sunshine out and we wanted to catch it because living in Canada you don't see much of it.

I was sat on the grass and it was quite difficult getting down but I managed, I had my legs spread out in front of me and Justin was sat in between them with his back against my chest and I had my arms wrapped around his waist and my head resting on his good shoulder as he rested his head back on my shoulder.

We both looked up towards the light blue sky in silence, but it was not an awkward silence it was comfortable as we sat in each others embrace lost in our own thoughts about anything and everything our brains could come up with.

I turned my head to the side, kissing his cheek softly making him release a soft sigh before i then went back to my original position.

I looked up at the clouds moving by slowly as I unconsciously made shapes out of them letting my imagination wonder.

I don't even know if we are going back to school tomorrow but I am guessing that we are, I'm kind of worried about what's going to happen when we get there though because I am really hoping that I don't let my ego take over and make me do something that I will really regret.

We have had a great couple of days since we have gotten out of the hospital and I like the way things are right now, I don't want anything to change and I want mine and Justin's relationship to just keep getting stronger each day like it has been.

I want to know every little detail about him and his life, I want us to form a bond that will become unbreakable to anything that tries to break it, I want there to be and us, but all that will come within time.

I just have to be patient and that will be hard because I am the most impatient person you will ever come to meet.

We have been working on the project everyday for about an hour or so and I have gotten to know a lot more about him that I never would have guessed.

Apparently the first time he took his drivers test he failed it and cursed at all the cars driving past for ages because he was pissed off about it, and I couldn't help but not believe that this is the same Justin that did that because he sounds like a completely different person.

Now to be honest he feels like he is a ghost because the people around him don't see him as a person.

They see him as someone to bully, someone to torture for their own amusement , people around him around him are malicious, they aren't afraid to show how malevolent they are, they manipulate his mind to make him think things about him that aren't true.

They are merciless to what they do to him, they don't have sympathy, they commit nefarious activities towards him of wicked ways which makes him commit negligence towards himself because he feels it's the only way and I am ashamed to say that I was one of those people.

I made him feel these things.

I broke him as well as others and I feel completely guilt ridden and I am completely remorseful for what I have done to him, that I will spend my whole life making it up to him if I have to.

Just to have his forgiveness that would be all I need.

For him to say those three words 'I forgive you.' Would mean the complete world to me because when he says those three words if he ever says them, that will be a new start for us and we can move on from all the bad things I have done.