Sudden Love (Old Version)

Auditory Hallucinations

Jason's pov 

My heart stopped in my chest as I looked down at my boyfriend, my legs still on either side of his body and my hands still pinning his frail arms above his head just in case, my head spinning wildly as I just stared at him, wondering, praying, asking, what the hell was happening? 

His eyes flashed open briefly and it was like looking into a pit of darkness, my nose was still flush against his in the same position I was in waiting for his eyes to open again. 

And once they did my own widened in surprise, I don't understand, he was fighting it, he should be back now, back to my Justin, back to my little cutie that is obsessed with grapes, who adores nature and the outside, he didn't tell me that but I could just tell by the way his whole face seems to light up when he breaths in the fresh air. 

I don't want to look into these pools of black, I want the hazel of Justin's eyes that I seem to get lost in all the time without meaning to, but I wouldn't have it any other way, the hazel that changes colours all the time and I cherish every single one of them when they show. 

Justin stared back at me not moving and not saying anything and I wondered if he was just waiting for me to make the first move. 

"J-Justin?" I stuttered in a whisper keeping my nose right against his loving the feel of his hot breath brushing over my face, everyone in the room was quiet and waiting for someone to talk or move but he never did. 

"Baby?" I tried again, but he just stared at me only blinking every once in a while, "Please say something beautiful." I whimpered, releasing his hands in my grip and placing both of them softly on his cheeks and caressing them. 

"I-I-" He stuttered and I nodded in encouragement.

"Go on baby, I'm listening." I promised. 

"I-I need a razor." He breathed out. 

Shock ran through my body and I started to shake as I took in the words that he just spoke to me, I leaned down and buried my face into the crook of his neck, fresh tears falling onto his skin as I held him close to me.  

It feels like he isn't coming back to me but I know that he is, I know that he will because of that one gold flicker of light in the pitch black hole of his eyes. 

"Can you get off me so I can go and get one?" He asked harshly and I shook my head no hearing him huff, I sat up and looked at him again, he was smirking. 

"Did you really think you could get rid of me that easily?" He chuckled making me frown as he started to squirm in my grip, the doctor walked over and put another shot into his arm and I did not stop him.

"What the fuck did you stick into me now?" He growled, struggling more beneath me but I wasn't about to budge not until he passed out. He paused and looked up at me. 

"Jason, can you got off me please?" He asked sweetly and I almost fell for it. 

I almost believed that it was my Justin but I knew my Justin didn't speak without a stutter and he wouldn't have asked me like that, he probably would have just pouted at me until I moved off him. 

"I'm so sorry Justin," I whispered as he started to slow down his struggling once again, "I am so, so sorry." I whimpered into his neck ignoring his pleads slurring out of his mouth for me to get off of him but I wasn't going to move even though I knew he was too weak to even get up now. 

I knew he had gone to sleep once again when his struggles stopped and his breathing turned light but I still lay there on top of him but still kept my weight off his body, and I cried.