Sudden Love (Old Version)

Please fight it

WARNING- Very upsetting scenes and words, so please do not read if you cannot handle it or get upset easily or even offended. 

Justin's pov 

We were in the next lesson and everyone was looking at me as I hurriedly wrote down notes and completed a worksheet we were handed trying to not pay attention to the stares I were getting from these people.

The eyes that I could not ignore though were Jason's as they were burning into the side of my face with a worried gaze, but I couldn't tell him what was happening, I couldn't let him know because I don't want him to worry about me.

My hands rushed to get every detail of notes, but I wasn't even reading them because my mind was somewhere else and it wasn't the good place, I think Jason could tell something was wrong though.

I felt a tap on my shoulder but I ignored it and carried on with what I was doing not wanting him to figure it out, "Justin." I heard my name being called but once again brushed it off.

"Baby look at me." I heard the voice known as Jason in my ear make me jump about ten foot in the air, he looked at me wide eyed because of my reaction then looked at me deeply and I squirmed under his gaze before looking away proceeding to write.

"Baby." He said again in a more demanding tone, making me turn to look at him.  

It felt like I was looking right past him, I knew what was happening to me and maybe I should say something but it isn't really a big deal, well not to me anyway.

"Baby, you would tell me if something was wrong, wouldn't you?" He asked looking right at me, I just hummed and carried on what I was doing.

My movements were that of an OCD person but I couldn't stop this from happening, there is noway for me to stop this from happening, I just have to let it happen and try to find my way back.

I know I'm not normal, I know I'm not the same as everyone else but I don't think I'm seriously ill. Yes maybe there is the odd thing wrong with me but I'm not going to die any time soon, no matter how much I wish for it.

The bell rang and I stood up robotically putting all of my things in my bag, Jason took my hand in his and intertwined our fingers so I just let him drag me away to wherever he was going.

It was lunch time now so I hoped that he was going to my usual place but he wasn't taking me that way, my head wasn't in the right place so I just let him take me. 

Looking towards the floor, I looked at every detail, every piece of chewing gum that was stuck to the floor, every scratch that was into the floor from students constantly walking on it, the dirt and mud coming off people's shoes as they scurried away to get their lunch.

I heard doors slam open making me jump, my eyes seemed to be permanently widened for some reason and anyone would think that I had taken some kind of drug, well I have taken my depression pills and some pain medication but that's it.

My eyes glanced side ways and I could see that we were in the dinner hall and it went dead silent as we entered it, you know I actually don't think that I have ever been in here and know I know why.

I then glanced over at Jason and he was glaring at everyone and the person that he glared at in the moment turned to look away from me, Jason tugged on my hand and pulled me over to the line.

"What do you want to eat?" He asked as we moved forward, I once again ignored him with furrowed eyebrows.

"Justin." He said once again, but I let go of his hand and made my way out of the hall with quick steps, I knew he was going to follow me but at this point I really don't care.