Sudden Love (Old Version)

The project

Justin's pov

I woke up to someone running their fingers through my hair gently and soft fingertips running up and down my bare back and the bandage making goose bumps appear. 

This felt too nice and i guessed it was Derek because well he's the only other person here as his parents are on vacation in Spain. 

I really didn't want to move from the position i want to stay here forever because i actually felt calm and like no one could hurt me here, but that cant happen so i have to get my lazy ass up and to school because i've already missed a day and that's honestly not like me, I may go to school and get beat up everyday but I like to get good grades and i like to learn new things. 

I fluttered my eyes open and looked up to see Derek smiling down at me, he's always been good looking, green eyes, blonde skater boy hair and strong features.

But i honestly only see him as a friend, more like a brother, I don't think i could ever like as more than that, he always tries to be there for me as much as he can and for that i am thankful, at least i have someone to turn to if things get too much.

I smiled back up at him weakly, "Good morning Justin." He greeted happily, "Morning D-Derek." I croaked in my morning voice that was rough from lack of talking and fluids, "How are you feeling?" He worriedly asked furrowing his eyebrows together to form a straight line.

"A lot better t-thanks." I spoke truthfully because i honestly did, "Your welcome, now come on what do you want for breakfast and i'm not taking no for an answer." He spoke sternly. 

Derek knows about my eating disorder and tries to get me to eat all the time, even though i really appreciate him looking out for me it can get annoying. 

"U-Urm Derek? p-please i'm not hungry and my stomach still hurts a little." 

He looked at me sternly and i slowly lifted my head from his lap. 

"Justin i never see you eat and you got beat up yesterday, you need to get your strength back up, please just eat something, for me?" He begged looking at me with puppy dog eyes.

I sighed in frustration, "Alright b-but nothing big just l-like a banana or an a-apple." I muttered, "No Justin, you're having proper breakfast." He demanded and I slouched back on the chair in defeat knowing that he wasn't going to listen to me no matter how hard i tried.

Why cant i just do what I want?

I know he's trying to help but i don't like being forced, I'll just have to throw it up in the school toilets. 

Derek got up and made his way out the living room and into the kitchen, so I sluggishly got up and followed him into the kitchen, I still feel a bit weak but it isn't the first time something like this has happened so i will get over it, I'm used to it. 

I plopped myself down on a stool and rested my head in the palm of my hand, wincing as I felt the bruise on the side of my face. 

I sat quietly then the voices started speaking in my head.

You deserved everything you got yesterday Justin, It hissed. 

I know, I thought. 

Why haven't you cut yourself yet today? It asked in a harsh tone.

Oh sorry I forgot, I'll do some when I get to school, I promised.

So you should, maybe do a few extra because you're about to eat you fat cunt, It insulted me. 

I know but I just want to get Derek off my back, I'll throw it up in school I promise. 

Good boy, now enjoy your food while it lasts fatty.