Just another lonely girl

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Karia's POV

"Tara dun tayo!" Sabi ko at hinila siya sa isang roller coaster na ride.

Wala siyang nagawa. Wala rin kasi akong kasama eh, ayaw sa nila Rainer sa akin kasi ang hilig ko daw sa mga extreme na rides. Si Lyvie naman at Jayver ay magpapahinga saglit.

And Dariz is free, so why not take him with me?

Pumila na kami at nung turn namin ay niready ko ang cellphone ko.

As the roller coaster started, marami nang nagsisigawan and woah Dariz screams like a girl.

"AHHHHHH"

Imbes na matakot ay tawa lang ako ng tawa at vinideohan ko ang buong ride.

Pagkatapos ng ride ay pinakita ko kay Dariz ang video at parehas kaming tawa ng tawa.

"Hahahah! You scream like a girl!" Asar ko sa kanya

"Grabe ka talaga!" Sabi niya at tumawa pa ulit

Nagdecide kami na magpahinga na muna at nakaupo lang kami sa isang tabi.

"You know if my brother is here, he would have scream like that too" he said, opening the conversation about his brother

"Hey, if you don't mind...what exactly happened to him?" I asked

"To be honest, he never told me why he was bullied. Pero sa tingin ko naiingit lang sa kanya yung mga yun eh. Mataas palagi grades niya and ngapakasipag nun. I guess nasobrahan na siya dun sa mga bully niya and decided to attempt suicide" he said

"Pati kasi sa mga social media platforms binubully din siya." Sabi naman niya

"Suicide is not always the answer and when you die, its like you're escaping your problems instead of facing it" sabi naman niya

"The thing is...its easier to escape than to face it. Thats why thats their first choice. Our first choice. Minsan kasi sa sobrang sakit na nararamdaman namin, kahit sino hindi na namin kaya harapin." Sabi ko

"But thats wrong" he said

"You'll never know the feeling thats why for you its wrong." I said

"For those who feels lost, thats the rightest thing to do for them."

You'll never you know the feeling of being worthless. The feeling when people are all looking down on you. When you feel so fragile and that anytime you could break.

When you try to reach out but nobody helps you. When you have to go through everything alone.

I know that its the worst thing to do but can you blame us?

When we feel that we can't hold on anymore? And that surviving another day is just...a blessing.

People doesn't know what we've been through. It doesn't matter to you but it matters to us. Those people with us in our darkest days...those people matter to us alot.

"I know its wrong and that no one should do that but can you blame those who did it?"

Those who did it...they're not weak. Those who have depression, they're not weak. We shouldn't blame them because they're going through something.

We shouldn't be blamed for everything because its not our fault.

"Alam mo, para sa iba ang saya saya ng buhay nila at halos wala silang problema sa buhay. Pero may iba naman na binuhusan ng problema and there were just times that sa sobrang daming problemang dumadagan sa kanila, hindi na nila kaya at nag gigive up agad"