Desire

Episode 14

It was the crack of dawn and I carried Sayaka on my back as I dashed through the streets as quietly as I could. Once I reached the familiar steps of the school, I laid her body down in the front. I turned to run away, but stopped at my tracks. I turned back around to suck in the familiar school I went to, playing with Kyoko-san's ribbon I had tied around my wrist like a bracelet. But, I shook my head as I ran off, not wanting to look back.

*~*~*~*~*~

I just don't know what to do with myself anymore. Kyoko-san is dead. My only reason for being alive today is gone. I felt drained, wandering through the streets like some zombie, not caring if I looked suspicious to anyone for but being in school.

I somehow wandered to the park and don't recall the journey there at all as I sat down and began to cry all over again. It seemed endless. Once I thought I was done with the tears, a new batch came in and I was running the water machine again.

"Rei? Is that you?" A familiar voice asked.

I looked up to see Madoka jogging up to me. "Why are you alone?" She asked more questions. "Why are crying? Where is Kyoko--"

"SHUT UP!!!" I screamed at her. She stepped back, surprised at my outburst. I stood up, an angry flow of tears streaming down my cheeks.

"Just shut up!" I screamed at her. "Don't you ever stop asking questions? Why don't you take a minute and look before you ask! Sometimes the answer is very obvious!"

I sat back down as I covered my eyes with one hand, allowing more tears to fall. "I-I'm sorry..." Madoka apologized sheepishly. "I didn't know...I guess Kyoko sacrificed herself to defeat Sayaka..."

I looked at her from my hand and she looked down, not even crying at the loss of her best friend, which fueled my rage some more. "WHY THE FUCK AREN'T YOU CRYING?!" I screamed some more. "SAYAKA WAS YOUR BEST FRIEND!!! WHY AREN'T YOU SHEDDING TEARS FOR HER?! DON'T ACT LIKE YOU UNDERSTAND ME AND DON'T EVEN PITY ME WHILE YOU'RE AT IT!!! YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND ANYTHING!! YOU DIDN'T WATCH YOUR FRIEND KILL HERSELF IN ORDER TO TAKE DOWN A WITCH THAT HAD NO CHANCE OF BECOMING NORMAL AGAIN!!!"

As I took deep breaths, I saw Madoka put a hand over her mouth, looking like she was going to cry. I sat back down, sighing and looking away. "Sorry..." I grumbled. "I shouldn't be taking out my anger and grief at you"

"No, it's okay," Madoka assured. "Kyoko was a dear friend of yours. Of course it would be difficult to quickly get over her death. I've shedded my tears at Sayaka's memorial today. Speaking of which, were you the one who left her body at the school entrance...?"

"Yeah," I responded. "I decided the best way for her to go was to at least leave her body anonymously and let her be honored. And, before you ask, Kyoko-san made sure Sayaka left in the most peaceful and happiest way as possible. Sayaka didn't go alone. Kyoko-san most likely sacrificed herself so that way Sayaka wouldn't pass on alone. But, she left me alone...I'm sorry, I sound so selfish right now..."

Madoka sat down beside me and hugged be. "Don't be," she whispered. "Kyoko was very dear to you, I saw. But, Rei...shouldn't you be at home right now? I'm sure your family must be worried since you look like you haven't returned him in a while."

"My family won't wait for me," I responded. "They would throw me out if I stepped foot in their property. And society rejected me as long as I remember."