This is not a fairytale-Sandersides

Chapter 14

The happiness I had felt throughout the whole day had suddenly disappeared and turned into a kind of worry and fear I could not identify.

From the moment I had woken up to my friends all binging around me to just a few hours ago I had felt at peace with myself. Happy to be with Joan and Talyn after Terrence had left to go see if he could get us anything to eat, most definitely pizza.

But after experiencing the utter joy of being with the once I loved, my brain and heart started one of their famous debates. 
I should be more aware of what was happening or rather, what had happened as I broke down but at the same time, my heart told me to just have some me-time, be happy with what was happening at that very moment and not worry about those bad things. Needless to say, I was feeling absolutely marvellous as I told Talyn and Joan what was going on.

Joan, who had been holding Talyn in their arms as if they wanted to protect them from all evil in the world got up, worry taking over their eyes while Talyn tried to get up from under the fortress of blankets they had built on top of themselves.

"It's probably normal to have an inner debate after what happened, I'd want to find it out too if I were you but honestly, I'd try to lay the worry of until tomorrow. Right now you deserve some Disney and snuggles from your two favourite people."

"Are Tom Hanks and Rebecca Sugar here?" Joan rolled their eyes while Talyn grabbed my wrist to pull me down into the fortress of blankets to watch Disney movies. 

As Mulan started playing  I abandoned all of my thought, not realizing I was unawarely getting sadder and sadder until I found myself crying. But as 'who is this girl I see' was playing at the moment I brushed it of as me just being as emotional as I am with these movies and didn't think any more of it.

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"Patton? Patton, I need you to listen okay?"

The feeling of warmth and safeness I had had in Romans room had been flushed down the metaphorical toilet as I sat on the floor, bowed over Patton's body, grabbing his hand to rub small circles on the skin.

"Patton I need you to focus on the touch okay? Focus on that and only that. Try to ban all bad thoughts you might be having and breath in and out as I say so okay?"

I was painfully familiar with the way the other trait was laying so motionless, yet every once in a while his body would move as if an electric shock were being sent through his whole being. His expression was one of intense pain as tears made their way out between his closed eyelids.

It's sad but I can call myself an expert in having to deal with these things. This probably was Patton's first ever attack, and looking at the state he was in, he had not been prepared.

"Breath in for four seconds Pat, okay? Now hold your breath for seven-" Another shock wrecked his body, the pain was almost touchable. "Okay now breath out for eight."

I repeated this exercise and kept rubbing his hand until I realized his hand wasn't as cramped, his expression softened and his eyes opened, looking at me for only a split second before turning towards Logan.

"I'm so incredibly sorry Patton... I-" He was cut off by Patton practically throwing himself into the others arms and starting to sob uncontrollably.

Logan slowly wrapped his arms around him and looked at us as if he was lost. Roman tried to gesture him to act like a normal human being and after a while, Logan pressed Patton against himself more and laid his head on top of Patton's.

"It's okay Patton. It's over now."