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I still remember (Unedited)

On my worst days, I was feeling down every day of the week, of the month. A year passed by and nothing was fixed. I cried a lot. I cried so much that sometimes I wasn't even able to tear the next time. I didn't even know why I wanted to cry, but I couldn't. Today, I can't cry either. They think that I am, but with all that happened, I still think that my life isn't colorful. I loved my head in Maddy's arms like I used to hide it in high school. I missed that and I don't want to leave home. I made friends, but none of them made me feel like that in five years.

"Thousands of fans were worried about her. Worried about why she stopped appearing in our 24/7s... or what was left of them."

Well, Dan did. I almost forgot about him, I know that I'm a terrible girlfriend or whatever I am. Come and guilt me if you want... I'm just not used to that... world. I'm not used to happiness either. I had so many stressful and bad years... or phases I guess. It looks like they created it for me because I survived "luckily". Kinda like the fake bright side of the situation to make me feel better.

"They really are attached to her aren't they?" Asks Ellen.

"You bet they are!" That's short term only believe me.

"Ash is right. She changed many lives after her article has been published. She also built a small support group who happened to have changed many lives as well."

"This foundation is the beginning of the better days she's been waiting for."

"So, what does that mean to you, guys, exactly?"

"We'll donate a dollar for every like we'll get for this video on Twitter, Instagram and YouTube."

"What Dan means is that when someone will support us with a like, we'll donate. So far, our manager has already had financial support from many celebrities, which made us help our first receiver."

"Have you started to work on a campaign?"

"We're working on it."

"Veux-tu savoir qui s'occupe de la musique? (Do you want to know who's in charge of the audio?)" No way! Just after Dan spoke, someone came close to me and... I recognize this voice way too well.

"Ève!!!" I say after freeing myself from Maude's arms to get in hers. "Qu'est-ce que tu as dans ta main? (What do you have in your hand?)"

"Attends. Tu vas bientôt le savoir. (With. You'll know soon enough.)"

"Amy, this is Phoenix, a German Shepherd. She's the first trained dog we're donating with your fondation." Says Dan in the video before she barks on stage. "Like Mira in Quebec, we decided to use animals, mostly retired police dogs, to help people in need for another pair of eyes or moral support." Ève just gave me Pheonixes leash before hugging me pretty tightly again. I can't believe it.

"We all agreed that, whatever happens next, she'll always belong to you and we made sure you can get to Cambridge with all the needed material."

I squatted to meet Phoenix and I'm already loving her. I always wanted a dog like her... I'm staring at Dan while the video still goes on. I can't hear anything, I can't listen. It's so hard to focus. When he puts his hands on my shoulders and hugs me, I can't help but feel grateful to have him. Without thinking about it, I'm leaning closer and I'm... kissing him. I am! I can kiss him! I must have remembered the gesture when he put his head on mine after hugging me. After I chuckled, he hugged me again and laughed quietly. Phoenix barked to interrupted us with Ève laughing. When the video ended, everyone applaused. Ève embraced me and... she seems so proud.

Ève has always been there for me. From the day we met, she's been one of the best friends you can have. I still remember the day she shyly joined our new born crew. She was shy, took a shot and... yet, I truly think it was the best meeting I've had that year. We became friends and crazy roomates who would buy pop corn every three or four days with Twizzlers or any kind of food for our early evenings. Our summer in PEI was the "best one yet" as we all say. We became so close that our barefoot walks on campus were just the beginning of our strong and durable friendship. Even a year after the program we joined, we were still as close as before leaving the East Coast and even more. Always present, she's one of the only friends I have who knew my issues when I started to have them and who made my life a little lighter when I was in the darkest times. She trusted me like I trusted her and I'm so grateful to still have her in my life. I could tell her anything and she could too. She believed in me and made me believe in myself when I wasn't able to see my own potential among a life changing experience. I really missed her. Really. Knowing she's been on stage with me really helped getting through this emotional part of the video.