HIGH

Chapter 48. Giving Up

Author’s Note: I hope this clears up the confusion that’s been going on :) Let me know what you guys thought/think! 

***ZAYN’S POV***

         The call I received after leaving Ava was expected. I had been doing daily checkups with Alec. As usual, he was on time. Six in the evening to be more precise. I considered ignoring the call but I figured he might be able to help me. Or at least tell me how to somewhat mend things.

In short, the pathetic relationship Ava and I had developed was all put to shit because I couldn’t hold my tongue. I didn’t mean the things I said. Or maybe I did. I wasn’t entirely sure. She was mine, I knew that. But it wasn’t entirely my fault. She was screwing with my head. One day she wanted me and couldn’t keep her hands off me and the next she’s scared of me. I would never actually do anything to her unless I was sure she was okay with it. I’m well and able to restrain myself. I’m not that kind of person.

“Make this quick, I have other things to deal with.” Alec said. He sounded agitated.

 I sighed into the phone. It was becoming a bit overwhelming. She had so many questions and I only had few answers for her. “This is so fucked up.”

“You screwed it up didn’t you? You told her!” Alec barked. I had to pull the phone away from my ear until he finished yelling.

“No! I haven’t told her anything. I can’t explain right now, alright? She’s in the other room.”

“Fine. Meet me in twenty minutes and we’ll solve this. If you fucked up the plan Malik, I swear to God I’m handing you both over.”

 “But I can’t leave her alone. Alec-”

The phone line went dead in my ear.

I couldn’t just leave her in the house by herself. After what had previously happened, she’d surely try and leave me. As much as I wanted to, I couldn’t trust her and she didn’t trust me either. I don’t know why I even thought she could have.

I hurriedly sent Liam a text asking him to be here in the next ten minutes. If he showed up on time, I’d be able to make it to Alec’s before I really got him angry. He had a tendency to flip over small things.

***

I opened the door to the bedroom as quietly as I could. She was sitting upright in the same place I had left her. I didn’t want to leave her alone. I wanted to make it up to her somehow, an explanation, anything. I didn’t like the feeling running through me when I saw just how fragile she was.

“Ava.” I said softly. I approached the bed with caution, not wanting to scare her.

She looked up at me with widened eyes. As I got closer, she did the exact opposite of what I expected. Ava stayed completely still, her eyes not leaving mine. I sat down on the edge of the bed in front of her.

Before I could say anything, she beat me to it.

“I can’t keep doing this.” She whispered to me. Tears began building up over her eyes created a glazed look. Her body was slightly shaking as she tried to refrain from crying. I stayed silent in case she wanted to continue.  

“Zayn I don’t like it here. I don’t want to do this anymore.” She choked. “I don’t even know what I’m doing.”

Her body suddenly erupted into more erratic movements as she finally let herself go. The tears were now running down her cheeks. Her hands began furiously wiping them away.

All I did was watch her in silence. I had no words for her. I couldn’t tell her it was going to be okay or even the reason as to why she was even here. I moved myself next to her. Our bodies were only inches from one another. I was unsure of how to comfort her. I awkwardly rested a hand on the top of her back, rubbing back in forth in smoothing motions.