A CLOSER STEP TO THE LIE||√

-1-who is she?

     I thought of it very much, and though, i still don't find any right possiteve answer or can't just relax .huh! I took a deep deep breath huuh.nothing is working still i want to know what is it . PERRIE! COME OUT DEAR .oh mum what do u want again .i went out and then my mom said come on sweetheart your dinner are ready ,i don't want to eat .but,my mom would ask me for the reason why i lose weight .ok, ok, i will mummy .but the food wasn't going through my throught i wanted hardly to know .were they talking about me ?

    

      ok but why do I even mind !for a momment i relax and for another momment i feel like i will pump soon.why ,why this feelings takes place in my heart or it is only nervouse .nah from what nervouse from death .why do i think of death .umm was it a nightmare? .no nothing ok ok let me recape my dreams,yesterday i dreamt am in a land uh,umm,then an old man came,he spoke to me?no,no,he whisperead somthing in my ears .but what ,was somthing about my life ,oh god oh god i can't take my breath ok.take a sharp breath perrie. Yes, take it huuuuh!

      (AT SCHOOL).ok,here is another studies day .oh when will it ends ,oh my god ,ugh when will the rest come.am I over acting .ok ,girls lets start our lesson ,deffusion ,oh mrs lisa really diffusion in grade ten!.ok no problem blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. And the lesson was so boring so l started looking arround to find somthing intresting .oooooh see there is a cat .boring!,ok .oh ,the hell why huh whyyy.
 
   

     yes again i think of my life no why do i think of death i don't want to sousite but i feel somthing strange in me grows painfully in my heart and somthing in my heart catch the tears falling from my eyes ,am i sick no, no and thinking of the old man ,will he take my life or just a man whispered somthing .ummm ok ok i need some rest .but afraid ,ok like every time deep breath,huuuh,but why every time why do i think about it every time .go out go to hell you shit thought

      .why imagination world ,no wait why scary imagination world .let me go out .wait does it even have a key .where am i,shall i think of diffusion.what is this again my lips trembled.somthing wierd had happened i hear a voice in my head what is it huh .a strange feeling grew in a painfull way,from my heart to my lungs through the viens .nervouse feeling pumped in my brain somthing like electrecity shocks .

     i feel i can't move a single part of my body .i felt like am blind a second blind and a second deff .i see my self in a dark maze no doors nothing .thats not my zone .i whispered to my self .from far a man standing.not showing his face why ?.wierng a black coat and sun glasses yes sunglasses .why huh we were in such a dark place .wait a miniute .where i am i was in the class, now in a dark maze with a stranger with a black coat and sunglasses .oh my god .oh yes am trying to find somthing in that place. the hell! Nothing is here my lord nothing .my eyes started winking of burn. it burnt me coz am holding my tears again.

  

    but now accedently one drop of water sliped from my eyes throgh my cheeks yes it is a tear, a tear i never wanted to show to any one, yes ,i kept my tears hidden most of the time like you can say i never cried with somebody beside me you can say my tears are much more then drops of water slips over my eyes and goes through my cheeks to the floor, for me its like drops of gold a magic water can handle problems and it should be kept always in it hole which is probbably my eyes .

       ok am trying to feel better but a screeming voice of a mother, perhaps, yes mother screaming no!don't kill it ,don'take my soul and whispers are going every where making me nervouse.then .PERRIE,PERRIE ,YOU GIRL WHERE ARE YOU .NOT CONSITATING .what no am here .wait am back ?yes, yes alas!but what did i do ?umm what happened.and all the class whispiring such a wierd girls .yes such a wierd girl .am a wierd girl !