A CLOSER STEP TO THE LIE||√

-5-the killing letter

(At school) well in my mind I was thinking should I tell my class mates or friends or should I leave it a secret I was lost in thoughts that could keep me awake but I chosed to leave it like that I thought they will either make fun or annoy me by saying thank god she will go away , so I decided keeping it yes why not what will I get from their knowledge nothing and as I thought that is the right thing to do and I will try to keep my fucking mouth closed all the day and keep my sucks word in should I even spit them out;any ways I was gaving a free period so as I don't have that much friends but my self so I sit with my phone in these period and the best thing mom gave me is out Internet data wow . I sat on the whatsapp and texted rebbica and though she replied late but atleast she did; so I went talking to her normally but ended that way
Rebbica;:hi
Me:hey
Rebbica:so what do you want
Me:umm really rebbica, do I need a reason to talk to my brstie
Rebbica:no worth lying of course you know;you meant to hurt me yesterday
Me:you don't want me to come
Rebbica:oh, you really don't know ?
Ok tell me your adress fast .
Me:ok
I sent her my adress and as soon as I sent it to her she blocked me!

Rebbica-
I don't know what to do my lips trumpled if perrie came she will discover I lied to her but actually I didn't just should I explain what happened but how?-I went to the school the next day and am not realising any thing diffrent today and as every day the lessons start and as it started I wasn't giving that much atention, I was just thinking of how stupid I was when I blocked perrie , thinking of her reaction,and thinking how stupid I will look if I unblock her , but but what should I do ,ugh that crazy feelings of guilt , is acting wierd it is jumping up and down hurting me and hitting each other , heh well it act like the gas molecules,well I think I should've thought twice befor I do this but now it doesn't matter I should find a way to tell her before she arrives saftely on german,

PERRIE-
Well I went to the room thinking of what to do while rebbica had blocked me for nothing by the way she wouldn't if I've told her it's out of my control but I know rebbica well she will never listen she is strong yes but, imotional more but what could make that angle that angry and sad , well any ways I should believe it's ain't me , I went yo she bathroom I filled the tub with some bubbly water with my best color , which makes me feel really relaxed , then I warmed the water took off my cloths and went into the tub I was thinking about rebbica and aunt sally I think I missed them and there will be some reason why she blocked me and asked for my adress, I kept on thinking about rebbica and the reason she blocked me long till I gave up and slept, in the tub!

REBBICA-
I don't know why I asked for her adress maybe to keep her away till I block her but I think this adress had just given me a pretty good idea , for the way I could conect with perrie , I don't need to unblock her just go back in time and use the way people used to use befor the phones and social media and E-mail I will use only a simple mail which will work pretty good to tell her am sorry becouse I lied to her about..... now let me start writing the letter, I was writing and my eyes was full of tears it really been three years since this but what I lost cost more than this time to be forgoten but that's God's wish and I have no hand in preparing this fate to me and my mammy.i wrote it and I finished and now am ready to send the mail to perrie I went and sent the mail with adress and they said it would arraive soon, I wish is truth

Perrie-
I went out after an hour, perhaps! No one noticed I went to the dressing room took a soft white dress a little wide but so so sweet smells like strawberries and chocolate at the winter I know it will smell like this and while am wiering I felt sleepy, again? Ok I dressed fast and slept, I seemed to be sleeping really long becouse my mom cleaned the room and living room washed my room's bathroom and she also prepared the brake fast which was five small size of waffles and some chocolate cream and strawberries with some caramel on the top,hoh so delicious! Alas!the day started well ok now am eating the waffle the first one it tasted pretty good and though I love waffles and straw chocolates , thats a mix of strawberry and chocolate♥, my mom called from the living room , I jumped out of the kitchen and answered her she asked me to open the door and check who is out well usually on sunday my friend may come because it's our holiday but she isn't my friend she is my mom's ok I went opened the door there were a stranger holding a letter and asking me to sign I signed and took the letter and the letter was from rebbica to me! I ran up stairs to my room opened the letter and I was shocked
"Dear perrie
You were my bestie and still since three full years with out leaving me am sure that you are shocked becouse I blocked you well I know that is wierd and unbelievable but my mother didn't break up with yours , actually my mom has died three years ago the airplane falled in the sea in our trip to german and I and my father are alive and well but mom is at heaven now near to god but her love will always last I can't forget her but I wish you forgive me my bestie♥"
I felt really shocked and embarrassed my mom knew but never told me so I won't feel sad but here I knew every thing I feel like my heart beat is going slow am feeling really so sad