Starting Over Again

Starting Over Again- Episode XIV

KASALUKUYAN kong inaayos ang sarili ko, it's been a week again at huling week na namin to pero Sam invited me na umalis na muna pansamantalaga gusto niya atang gumala muna kami kaya pinagbigyan ko na siya.. After nung sa timezone hindi ko na siya kinausap.. I know I am wrong for doing that but yun ang alam kong tama.. I don't want to talk to him dahil natatakot akong ulitin na naman niya ang sinabi niya..

Habang nag-aayos napa tingin ako sa phone ko ng may tumatawag doon.. Sino naman kaya to? Sinagot ko yung phone ng hindi tinitignan kung sino..

[Hello Jelou] halos nanigas ako sa nadinig ko.. D..dapat pala tinignan ko muna kung sino.. Wala pa talaga akong lakas ng loob na makipag-usap sa kanya pero wala na din naman akong magagawa eh..

"H-hello Kenneth?" I sighed. Nahihirapan akong huminga dahil sa kaba eh..

[Hindi ka pupunta dito sa Aspen diba? May kailangan kasi akong ibigay sayo asan ka ba ngayon?] 

"Nasa bahay ako sige bye.." agad kong pinatay ang phone ko at lumabas na ng madinig ko ang busina ng kotse ni Sam..

"Hi Sweety" agad na lumapit ako sa kanya at niyakap siya

"Let's go babe?" tumango ako at agad na pumasok sa sasakyan niya.. Pupunta kami ngayon sa tagaytay hindi naman kami mag sta-stay doon mag bobonding lang din at pagkatapos uuwi na din..

Tahimik lang kami sa pagbyahe kaya naman en-on ko yung radio ng sasakyan niya.. Sakto naman na tumutugtog yung You and Me ng lifehouse.. Just like Me and Sam in this moment..

~What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time~

Ngitian ko si Sam na nakahawak sa kamay ko.. Ngayon ko lang masasabi na hindi ko siya pinili dahil sa naaawa ako sa kanya kundi pinili ko siya kasi mahal ko siya.. I know that I love him maybe Importante sa akin si Kenneth but not that I love him the way i used to.

~'Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you~

He is the kind of a man na he will take care of you.. I know that he can't hurt me and he won't hurt me coz I know he loves me more than I love him..

"I love you Sam" nakangiting lumingon siya sa akin at hinalikan ang kamay ko tapos tumingin na siya sa harapan namin..

~All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here~

"I love you too Jelou"

~'Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do, nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you
Something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right
'Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you
And me and all of the people with nothing to do and nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you
What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive~

Ng matapos ang kanta hinawakan niya ulit ang kamay ko at pinisil iyon..

"God knows how lucky I am that your with me Jelou.. I love you so much always remember that" tumango ako.. Nabulabog lang ang moment namin ng biglang tumunog ang phone ko.. Kinuha ko iyon at tinignan si Sam..

"K-kenneth" akala ko magagalit siya sa akin pero tinanguhan niya lang ako at sinagot ko na ang tawag..

"Hello?" ni loudspeaker ko iyon.. para naman madinig ni Sam ang sasabihin ni Kenneth

[Asan ka? Andito na ako sa bahay mo pero wala ka] napangiti nalang ako.. I know mali tong ginagawa ko pero... I want him to stop of what his doing..

"Ha? Nako andyan ka na pala.. Papunta ako sa batangas eh" I know maling magsinungaling ako pero I can't help it..

[Ganun ba? wait me there papunta na ako] napanganga ako sa sinabi niya.. Seriously? Akala ko titigilan na niya ako pero..

HINDI PALA

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A/N: Hiyers.. Next chapter na ang continuation nito..