NOT A FAN

chapter 34

*Last day in California*

I woke up for the thousandth time tonight tossing and turning once again. 
I couldn't sleep.... can you blame me though? I leave Cali today..

I rolled over looking at my alarm clock which read 2:30am. Great.

*3 and 1/2 hours later*

It was now 5:30am. At least I slept a maximum of two hours last night...

There's no way I'm going back to sleep now.

I'm just glad I have the day to spend with my Family, Ethan... and of course Grayson.

I slid out of bed and quietly walked out of my room and into the bathroom making sure I wouldn't wake any one as I did so.

I hopped in the shower and hummed the tune of the song I was singing for Gray today.

I'm nervous.

I took a short shower and was out within 10 minutes. I headed back to my room afterwards and got dressed.

It was always cold in airports so I purposely brought a pair of jeans and a black sweater for the flight back to Jersey.

I applied a little makeup seeing as it was my last day here... might as well leave looking decent, right?

I walked over to the mirror plastered along the wall and took a quick photo to post on Instagram. I have about 267k on instagram now that most of Grayson's and Ethan's fans have found out that... ya know.

I really love them. Some of the fans are super protective (which I understand) but the majority gladly accepted me into the Dolan family.

I like to keep them posted on what's going on in my life so they don't feel like I'm trying to hide or keep things from them. I even recently made a public Twitter so that I could update from there too.

EmersonRobinson:

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EmersonRobinson- ✈️ 💭 California and the people in it will forever have my heart ❤️

After I had posted the picture, I opened up twitter and favorited a couple of tweets.

It's really been an amazing summer. I couldn't  have asked for better people to spend it with

It was now almost 7am and most of my family was starting to get up and finish their last minute packing.

I could smell the succulent (A/N: lol. get it?) scent of pancakes float through the air signaling my grandma was now awake also.

I hopped off of my bed slipping my phone into my back pocket as I did so and headed downstairs to greet my grandma.

"Mornin" I said as I rounded then corner that led to the kitchen.

"Morning sweetie" my grandma waved as she flipped over a pancake.

I heard the shuffle of bedroom slippers from  down the hall which soon revealed an exhausted looking Maddie.

"Hey" she said with a yawn.

"Hey hun" my grandma spoke cheerfully.

That's one thing I'll always admire about my Grandma... she's always so happy, even when it's the crappiest day in existence.

"What time are the guys coming over?" Maddie asked me as she pulled out her phone to text someone.

"Around 8" I told her

"8am?! It's already 7... I have to get ready" she said wiping her bare face and turning around to walk back upstairs.

I laughed at Maddie's still fan girl-ish ways.

It was quiet for a while.

"She's a hoot" my grandmother laughed quietly as she continued making breakfast.

I nodded in agreement even though she couldn't see me.

"You need some help with breakfast?" I asked her in attempt of lightening the gloomy mood that had seem to settle in the room.

"I'd love some help" my grandma cheered clapping her hands in excitement. Oh how my grandma loves to cook..

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*Ding dong*

"That's probably The guys, I'll get it." I told my family who was seated in the living room.

I hopped up from my seat on the couch and jogged to the front door. (Of course I stopped by the bathroom to fix my hair first)

I unlocked the front door and opened it revealing Ethan who stood there with his hands tucked deep down into the pockets of his shorts.

"Hey Ethan" I smiled bringing him into a hug.

"Hey" he responded hugging me back.

"Where's Gray?" I asked looking around him to see if Gray was just walking slowly or something.

"Um." Ethan said scratching the back of his neck almost nervously.

It was silent.

"He's not coming.."