NOT A FAN

chapter 39

My mom quickly pushed through the crowd to get to me and pulled me away from the annoying lady who was questioning me and all the crazy fans.

"Are you okay honey?" My mom asked me once we had gotten to a quieter area.

I️ nodded my head. "I'm fine" I️ said emotionlessly.

I️ could see my family over my mother's shoulder as they all took turns looking in our direction with concerned expressions.

"Did you and Grayson break up?" She asked me cautiously as she tried her hardest to read my expressionless face.

I looked back at my mother and nodded my head.

"Oh hun.." she said pulling me into a hug.

"I'm so sorry" she said quietly as she rubbed up and down my back soothingly.

For some reason I️ couldn't cry.

I️ felt like I️ needed to, but tears never came.

My eyes were dry.

"Do you miss him?" She asked me once we had pulled away from the hug.

"Yeah" I️ answered truthfully, nodding my head and looking down at the floor then back up at her.

"But There's really no shortcut to forgetting somebody. You just have to endure missing them everyday until you don't anymore." I️ said.

She shook her head sadly.

It was quiet between the two of us for a moment.

"let's just go home" I️ said as I️ walked back over to the rest of my family who was still standing and talking as we waited for our flight.

When my grandma saw me walking back over to them she immediately came up and gave me a hug.

"Oh, how I'm going to miss you!!!!!" She said kissing my cheek and grabbing both of my hands, squeezing them tightly.

"I'm going to miss you too grandma" I️ said quietly.

The smile slowly faded off of her face as she watched me.

"Listen to me..." she said with a sigh and a small smile.

I️ nodded.

"You're mother took 9 months to form that heart of yours" she said pointing to my chest.

"Don't let someone break it in a couple of seconds"

I nodded again.

"And remember, you're always welcome here in Cali sweet pea" She said kissing my cheek once again.

I️ laughed a little as I️ smiled a real smile and thanked her.

She let go of my hands and patted my arm lightly as we stood with the rest of my family and continued to wait.

*ding*

I️ pulled out my phone revealing a text from Ethan.

Ethan: I'm here, where are you?

Me: I'm standing near gate 7

Ethan: be there in 5

I️ tucked my phone back in my pocket and waited for Ethan to arrive.

I'm glad Ethan's coming. I️ really am.

I️ kept an eye out for him as the rest of my family began talking about the fun summer we had.

And Sure enough, after 5 minutes passed I️ saw Ethan rounding the corner surrounded by fans who were freaking out.

He waved at me smiling widely as he did so.

I️ smiled too.

He took a couple more pictures with fans who respectfully backed off and allowed Ethan and I️ to talk.

"Hey" he said as he pulled me into a hug.

"Hey" I️ said as I️ hugged him back.

"Thank you for coming" I️ told him.

"Of course" he said with a smile.

"I'll miss you though" he said with a goofy grin which caused me to smile too.

"I'll miss you too" I️ nodded.

*Ethans pov*

As Emerson and I️ talked, I️ couldn't help but admire how beautiful she was.

Dang.

Freaking gorgeous.

We were talking about the time we rode four-wheelers (aka: when we met) when I️ heard a bunch of girls begin squealing and running towards the entrance of the airport.

"What's going on?" Emerson asked, looking over at me.

"I️ was wondering the same thing.." I️ said with a puzzled expression.

We continued looking in that direction confused as heck until a familiar figure rounded the corner.

He had messy hair and tired looking eyes.

He looked like he had just been at the gym for hours due to the fresh beads of sweat on his brow, sleeveless black shirt and tense muscles.

He looked around the crowds of people frantically.

Fans were tugging on him and trying their best to get his attention taking pictures, videos etc but he ignored them because he was looking for one person.

And one person only.

He continued to look until his eyes finally landed on her.

Immediately his muscles relaxed.

I️ looked over at Emerson trying to read her expression as she looked at him too.

They looked at each other like they were in love, like they should kiss and run away together, but they chose to stand and look at each other instead.

They looked at each other with what ifs and could haves and hearts full of regrets.

And I️ know it sounds selfish.... but she looked at him the way I️ wish she looked at me.

A/N: :) this book is almost over.