Oops (Gray x OC)

C.37

I fell quiet and Natsu also did as we looked at Gray, and he protectively stepped in front of me.

"Keep your distance, ice princess." Natsu snapped and I looked up at him.

"I just want to apologise. Can you back off so I can talk to her?" Gray asked, eyes still on me as I kept a neutral expression.

"I'm not letting you anywhere near her. Not after all the shit you said. That hurt her, you know? Or is your heart as cold as your magic is?" Natsu spat.

"Look, Baz, I'm sorry for what I said. It was out of line, I was wrong. And you're right, I acted horrible, despicable to you. I'm sorry for that, too. I should've been a better boyfriend to you, I should've acted right. In all honesty, I have no idea why I acted the way I did, and I know I shouldn't have. I should've treated you better, and if I could, I would take it all back in a heartbeat. I can't say how sorry I am, Baz." He said and the entire hall was silent, watching me.

My chest felt tight, probably because I was breathing slow, yet my heart was beating rapidly. Once again, all I could see was Gray standing there, ten feet away from me, and everything in the world just seemed to fade away into white noise.

Gray was wearing a plain white shirt and black pants, but in my eyes, he was bursting with color. I wanted nothing more than to freeze time and go to hug him, just to feel him against me, to be close and in his arms one last time.

"Baz." Natsu saying my name and shaking my arm woke me up, and I blinked as I looked at him, and he looked concerned.

"Baz, are you okay? Why are you crying?" He asked and I brought my hand up to touch my cheek, and sure enough, there were tears.

"I... I just..." I dropped my hand and walked out, brushing past Gray, and I got chills, good chills, but I didn't let them show.

"Baz? Baz!" Natsu caught up with me as I reached for the door.

"I just wanna be alone right now, Natsu, okay?" I asked softly, looking down, and I knew he was staring at me with those caring eyes of his.

"Alright. I'll check on you in a bit. Stay safe." He said and pecked my forehead. "I love you." He mumbled and I smiled.

"I love you, too, you fucking dork." I said and left, by myself, going home, where I crashed into myself.

"Fuck." I said, holding my head as I sat on our bed. "Fuck!" I swore loudly again.

How dare he treat me so badly, and be so petty, and then come back looking all heartbroken with that perfect apology, and actually mean it?

I don't doubt Gray for a second that he didn't mean it. He was too sincere, too heartfelt to fake it. And also, Gray just isn't that kind of person.

He looked so sorry and I could feel it in my soul that he regrets what he did, and if I had no common sense, I would take him back.

To me, Gray was the sun, and I looked at him as if he were the sun. I looked at him in frustration, and that was about it. I wanted to bask in his warmth, and I used to complain when he left, or when he was muted. On days when he was stronger, brighter, I hid. I never actually looked until he was leaving, and then I would kick myself and wonder why I never looked before.

Gray is the sun, and I am crashing, and this will end in flames. He's constantly drawing me in, and I want to get close, even though I know it will hurt me. I know it's not good, and I know that nothing good will ever come out of it.

This will end in flames, and I will burn.

"Baz? Baz, you okay?" Natsu came home and kneeled in front of me, taking my hands as I quietly cried.

"Natsu... I've fucked up." I cried, taking back one of my hands and covering my face with it as I cried uncontrollably.

"What did you do?" He asked, and I cried harder. "Baz, talk to me. I'm here for you."

"I..." I sniffled a little as he wiped my tears. "I think I'm in love with Gray." I admitted, a whole new round of tears coming as Natsu sat in a stunned silence.

This will end in flames, and I will burn.

I know it.