tangled in the great escape. (pierce the veil)

chapter 5

iris pov

its been a week since everything happened and everyone is keeping a close eye on me which bothers the crap out of me. I'm not 5, yes I messed up but I don't need to be watched practically all day.

dad took me out of school and put me in an online schooling program which is so much better in my opinion. I still get a bunch of hate on instagram and twitter, all from people at school. its gotten even worse than it was before. I try to act like it doesn't bother me when I'm around the guys but its slowly eating me alive.

I woke up looking at my phone to see it's lit up with hate from people. all telling me how worthless and pathetic I am and how I should kill myself. all the same. and to make it worse everyone is talking about my mom now. how do the guys not see this? all I do is stare at it, its not like I can do anything about it but cut and starve myself. the guys think I'm eating, well I am, but it just doesn't stay down if that makes any sense. and I just stopped cutting myself on my arms, I do it on my thighs now and they don't know a thing

I will admit I'm nervous because everyone is supposed to go on tour soon, for a long time and I don't want to be left alone, again.

"hey iris, can we talk?" dad said while walking in.

'gee thanks for knocking'

"umm sure"

"well I know you know that we're supposed to be going on tour soon and I don't plan on leaving you alone. so, me and they guys all agreed to have you come on tour with us. we have it all sorted out already so I just thought that you should know, ok?"

"ok thank you so much!" I said while smiling.

"ok, well maybe you should start packing cause we leave in 2 days" he said while leaving. as soon as he's gone my smile disappears. if I go on tour with them someone is bound to find out everything I'm hiding and I can't have that and I don't have a way out of it either. and its not like anyone can keep a secret.

FRICK

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tour day

we left really early in the morning and we got at the hotel because we'll be here for a couple of days, so why not a hotel, right?

all of the guys are drinking and playing stupid video games and acting like boys you can say I guess. I'm lost looking at my phone when someone pulls it out of my hands scaring the pee out of me.

"hey what was that for?!" I say looking up at jaime.

"sorry for scaring you. I just wanted to talk. so, how's it going"

'he's on to something'

"umm, good?" I say more as a question. he looks at me and signs. that's not a good sign.

"iris, I've seen the hate your getting and I know your not ok, so what's going on. I promise I wont tell anyone, I just need to know your ok."

you won't tell anyone?

bullcrap

"jaime I'm fine I promise" I say while fake smiling. he smiles and turns around to the guys making me relax a little.

"hey guys I me and iris are going to go look around the hotel ok? see ha later"

he grabs my wrist and instead of 'looking around the hotel' he pulls me into his hotel room.

WHAT IN THE FISH NIPPLES DO HE THINK HE'S DOING?!?! this boy hot problems. he pulls me onto the bed and we just sit here in silence for a couple of seconds until he decides to say something.

"what's going on because I know that your not ok. even when we were home I could hear you crying every night so spill." I just look at my hands.

"iris please tell me"

"you have to promise not to tell anyone" I didn't want to tell him but he wouldn't let it go. maybe it would be good to get it off my chest

"I promise"

"ok. its just the hate, its really getting to me. its like it's eating me alive, if that makes any sense"

"sweetie.it makes perfect sense. I can see that your not yourself. how have you been dealing with it. have you been cutting?" i didn't respond

"iris?" I nod my head

"where?"

"thighs" I say with my voice cracking

"can I please see" I shake my head. I didn't want to tell him first of all, I don't want to show him.

"iris, please show me. I'm worried about you that's why I'm doing this" I give in and pull down my pants enough for him to see

"iris why didnt you tell someone! do you know how deep this is!" he said while tears started to build up in both of our eyes. now that he said it, it was some of the deepest I've ever cut before.

"I just couldn't. you wouldn't understand"

"iris we all love and care about you so much we're just trying to help you." he looks at my stomach and his eyes widen.

"please tell me you've been eating" I nod my head.

"do you actually keep it down?"

"n-no" he lifts up my shirt and looks at my stomach.

"oh iris" he says and pulls me into a hug.

"from now on, if anything is wrong, you tell me you promise?" he says while looking me in the eyes.

"yes I promise"

"thank you. now how about we go look around and get you some food?"

"ok"

"and I'm going to make sure.you keep it down"

crap

he says while I pull my pants up and we leave. I just hope he can keep a secret.

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update ya! so I hope that you guys like it so far
-brooklynn