A Suffering Wife

Kabanata 18

Brother

Love doesn't require any return. I mean when you love that person you'll going to love that person despite of the flaws he or she possessed. I learned that no matter how coward,  bastard, stupid or burden the person is if you fell for them you don't care about your surroundings. On what people going to say, because you only thinks that their opinions doesn't matter to you what matters to you is your feelings. Love made individuals to be selfish where people erudite to kill and to be insecure.

I agree to the quote "Love is blind" ofcourse! Only eyes got blind not hearts. Heart see what kind of person that individual is. Even for others the person you love is the most cursed person in the earth but your heart saw how good she or he is you'll just ignore those stupid perception of people around you.

Kaya kung nasaktan man ako dahil hindi ako magawang magustuhan ni Eli kahit na ginawa ko na lahat I won't regret. That's my choice kasi hindi naman ako nanghihingi ng kapalit eh. Hindi naman niya ako inutusan na mahalin siya. Not because I gave everything he'll going to love me back. No, that's not love! We are responsible for our own tribulation.

Hurting is our choice.

"What's with the smile?" Tanong saakin ni Es habang nag aayos ng mga libro sa library.

"Ha? Bakit masama ba? Alam mo kasi dapat palagi kang nakangiti para hindi ka madaling tumanda." Napangiwi siya sa sinaad ko.

"Ewan sayo! Siguro kayo ni Eli no?" I groaned to her. Umiling ako sakanya.

Ilang linggo na ba ang lumipas bago ang first kiss ko? Two weeks? Simula ng mangyari yun ay nahihiya na akong magpakita kay Eli. Imagining my demeanor while he was kissing me made the shiver travelled down to my spine.

The whole day I spent my time in working some placards and tarpaulins for Greeks. Ilang linggo nalang at magbubukas na ang pintuan ng kolehiyo saamin. I didn't have any plans for transferring I'm fine here saka hirap ako sa pag-adapt ng environment at mag adjust. Mabuti na rito para walang awkwardness  na mangyayari.

"Miss Slutty Perez?" I lifted my chin to see who called me.

I automatically stood up as my eyes widen. Ano na naman ginagawa niya rito?

"You looked shocked. Oh, maybe you're asking why I'm here. Uhm, You're the best slut I ever knew..." She said. Nanliit ang aking mata sakanya.

"Don't make a scene here." I warned.

"I won't. Don't worry. Hindi naman ako katulad mo eh. Na nanlalandi-"

"Excuse me?" Sumosobra na bunganga nito ah.

She snickered together with her apostles. "You little slutty girl. Akala mo hindi ko alam na nilalandi mo parin ang boyfriend ko?" She said in horror.

I shook my head.  Why is she threatened? Hindi ba dapat mas paniwalaan niya ang pagmamahal ng boyfriend niya?

"Hindi naman manlalandi ang isang babae kung hindi nagpapalandi ang lalaki.." I said with no humor.

She stepped towards me. I'm not scared. Try to hit me I'll accused you RA 9262 Violation against women and their children.

"So the truth finally out? You admitted.." She laughed. Ngumuso ako sakanya. Nakitawa na rin ang mga alipores niya.

"No. I'm just stating that you're lack of trust. Too bad ano nalang sasabihin ng boyfriend mo kung malaman niyang wala kang tiwala sakanya? And in first place naniniwala ka ba na kaya kang lokohin ng boyfriend mo?" Yes, I don't know why I'm talking to her.

"You little slut-" I know her blood starting to boil. I didn't do wrong.

"Oh please. You're a paranoid girlfriend. Saka ano ba makukuha mo saakin dahil sinugod mo ako? What? You want me to hit using a filthy hands of yours?"