(Ming x Kit) [|| Completed ||]
Many years passed... Everyone now has their own lives. Everything is settled for all of them. Unfortunately, love can sometime make us loss what we have, who we are. MingKit will embark on a journey to make themselves...
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Kit looked at his alarm clock on his side table; 3:25 A.M. He had been trying to force himself to sleep but his mind wouldn't let him. It's surfing through galaxies of unsettling thoughts. He did everything, every possible position he can contort his body to find the most comfortable position, but he just can't put his mind to rest. His body is beyond exhausted, this day had been crazy; no, crazy can't even start to cover it. He traveled from Chiang Mai to Bangkok and rode an airplane for more than an hour and a half, which terrified the shit out of him. His father is in the hospital with a hole on his skull. His mother tried to hide it from him. His school tour and impromptu speech. Then Ming showing up out of fuckin' nowhere. And catching Tom cheating on him.
Isn't it all exhausting enough? He wondered as his mind is still stubbornly refusing to ease up.
He's in awe. Tom cheated on him. But...
Why am I feeling nothing?
He grabbed one of his pillows and covered his face with it. He can't understand himself. His boyfriend just cheated on him. Shouldn't he be crying? Or, perhaps throwing a tantrum?
Maybe because he knew it was coming, he saw it. He saw it despite his refusal not to, yet still, he saw it. Then that stupid Mingkwan just showed up after ten years like a mushroom after a rain. He's still trying to figure out how he should feel about him.
But where will you be now if he didn't show up earlier? A little voice whispered to his ears. But he shoved it aside right away. That is not sufficient to absolve him of his crime against him. He had broken him terribly, enough that he stopped talking to his friends; Pha, Yo, Beam and Forth. As they all reminded him of Ming. He chose to work in Chiang Mai after graduating, to get away from them, from everything that has to do with his heart. They reminded him of his tragic love story. But it all turned out to be a very unwise and unpopular decision. He just realized now, how stupid he was.
Out of all these, one thing he is sure of, at least. He's a goddamn mess right now.
He's swirling in so much emotion that he basically doesn't know where to start, or which to deal with first. He's angry, worried, confused, betrayed, surprised, exhausted. It's draining the sanity out of him.
He wanted to cry, but he didn't know what to cry about. His Dad? Tom? Ming? Or his miserable existence?
He clutched a fistful of his hair out of frustration as he removes the pillow that was covering his face and looked blankly at his dark ceiling. He is not letting that Mingkwan get close again, for what? So he can break his heart again? Hell, no! He'd been through enough.
And Tom? He rolled on his side as he sighs. Well, it's all fuckin' clear, Kittinan. He never loved you. He just used you. Toyed with you. Manipulated you. He's nothing more than a life support system for a huge dick. He's not even human.
