Blood Sugar

Part Ten: Knock Me Down

Once I got back to my place, I took a quick shower and brushed off the smell of the penetrant and extremely sweet smelling perfume that reminded me of last night's girl. Then I had another coffee and scanned the mail. My mom was sending me a card from her last skiing vacation in Aspen with Lawrence. I pinned it on my fridge, it made me happy that my mom finally lived her life like she deserved. When I finished my coffee, it was time to go. The band wanted to meet up at Tony's place to discuss which songs we wanted to record next week.

The jamming from inside told me that I was late once more. Tony interrupted in the middle of Sexy Mexican Maid. "Look who's decided to give us a visit today." "Sorry I'm late", I shrugged. "Hey, what's wrong Johnny?", Flea rushed to my side. "I'm fine really", I said. "Aight, let's not waste time. We decided to practice Knock Me Down some more. I thought we could add it to our Roxy setlist. What ye think?", Ant asked. My mood improved immediately. I put on my guitar and got started. It felt quite good to be taking Tonys place for once.

Next we discussed our recording schedule when there was a knock on the door. Chris stopped by. "Hope I'm not disturbing. Just wanted to tell you that Lara's going to be there on friday", he said in Chads direction. "Cool thing, thanks for letting me know, dude", he was clearly hiding his excitement. Tony went over to Chris and put his arm around him. "Even more important.. will Kaya be there too?", he said facing him, smirking. This got me pretty pissed. How was he all over her already? I didn't want to believe he could win her over with his "charms". She didn't seem like that kind of girl. My eyes lit up when Chris told us she'd be there too. Tony seemed to notice. "Aha, someone else seems excited, huh Johnny?", he said. "What're you on about?", I tried to get outta the way of that conversation. "Don't act all surprised. I've seen how you guys went out together. What actually happened, hm?", Tony said teasingly. He was trying to sound like he didn't care much. But I could feel this aggressive undertone in his voice. "I really don't remember much. Guess I got too wasted", I replied in all honesty. Chris was scratching his head, looking all uncomfortable. "Hey Chris, you talked to her, right? Did she say anything about her little tete-a-tete with Johnny here?", Ant said. And my god was he making this whole situation unbearable. The other guys backed off already only leaving Tony, Chris and me standing in the hall. "Uhh... I guess she's said one thing or another about it.. but... like.. you know... I'm quite sure she wouldn't like.. want me to tell you..", he looked down. Poor guy. I just wanted to leave him alone but was starting to get all curious myself. "C'mon dude, your secrets are safe with us. Aren't they?", Tony said looking to me but I didn't react to it. "Well.. I guess it'd be actually kinda good for you to know John.. so.. she told me you wanted to take her home", Chris began. Ok, I could see where this was leading and felt embarrassed already. "Anyways, she wasn't so fond of the idea. But as she rejected you didn't.. like take it too good. Telling her how there were plenty of other girls wanting to be in her place.. Something like that. I guess that wasn't that charming, was it?", Chris said carefully.

Oh god no, I covered my face with my hands. How was I going to make her talk to me ever again? Tony wasn't helping much either. "Oh my John. Guess you should leave the field to me, huh?", he said. "Guess you should just fuck off, man", I said. I couldnt bear his cockiness any longer. Chris tried to unravel the situation. "Well.. I think she's just coming to the show because of Lara. She's not into all that drama, you know?", he said. Ha, this was an obvious hint in Tonys direction. "Whatever", he said and left to head to the kitchen.

I took the chance to take Chris to the side. "Hey Chris, you know.. I know I can be a dick sometimes. And not quite the charmer when it comes to some girls. But I know you and Kaya are close. So I just wanted to let you know.. I was actually so fucked up that night. And like I said.. didn't remember all of this. I'm fucking ashamed of myself really. This is not what I intended to do or say to her. To be honest, she blew my mind. Desperate to get to know her, when I first spotted her. But I guess my drunkeness got in the way. I swear to you, I'm not gonna cause trouble again. I didn't intend to make her feel bad, you know? I wish I could make this up to her...", I told him. "It's okay man. I was shocked to hear this from her because I thought you'd be a real cool guy. You seem to be sincere now though. I think she'll see this and maybe you can have a fresh start somewhen, y'know?", Chris said. Man, what a nice dude. I gave him a smile and he went off. I did the same. Didn't feel like staying here with Tony, thinking about spending all of next week with him, I had to get some distance.