Turned

Chapter Eighty Eight

I had few options, becoming fewer and fewer. I was worried for Lena, so Caleb agreed to go and get her, to bring her to Quicksilver. I didn't mind that, I trusted him... at least, trusted him enough. I had few allies and I needed Nick there, in case Leo stopped Matt from inviting me in. If he did, Nick was the only one who didn't need an invitation to enter, Nick or Lena but I didn't want to put Lena's life in danger, not around Leo, a monstrous vampire, blood-starved, evil. 

Nick followed me as I walked down the street, the cold was starting to get to me, but he pulled me back to his house. I didn't know why at first until I looked down at the blood pools on my dark jeans, my shirtless chest. He took me to his home and to my surprise, I didn't need an invitation to get inside. He let me in, just turned the key and let me inside. He walked inside first as I shivered but... I wasn't cold, I was worse, acting.

"You're okay" Nick promised as he threw me a tank top and a flannel shirt. I put them both on as he looked for a pair of jeans. Thankfully, I'd left so many clothes at his house. He handed a pair of jeans to me, my jeans thankfully since Nick was a little smaller than me, he'd given me my jeans, my shirt... something I needed, if I wanted to wear it and move. 

"I'm sorry" I stated.

"Don't worry, you're not the first person to believe you've hurt someone" Nick promised with a hug.

Just in that moment, I loved him even more. He was so beautiful, inside and out, he cared about me and I him, perhaps we were made for each other after all, perhaps we were soul mates destined to find each other.

If I hadn't been possessed, if I hadn't been on a mission of sorts to stop Leo from hurting either Matt or Lena, I'd have stayed with him, after what happened, I was considering asking him if I could move in with him, I was sure I wanted to, loved him enough to.

I could only imagine what I looked like, confusion was written on my face as my phone vibrated. I didn't answer it, I didn't even look at it, I didn't dare. If it was Leo, he'd only be taunting me, if it was Matt, it was probably Leo, probably him trying to capture me, kill me. I wasn't going to take the risk, it was too big of a risk to take.

"It's Matt" Nick said awkwardly. "Shall I answer it?" he asked.

"No, no don't" I begged quickly. 

"Okay, calm down" Nick requested calmly, keeping me rather calm.

"I... I need to help him" I cried.

I didn't realise just how scared I'd been, until I cried my eyes out. I didn't care about my appearance, I just fell and cried on the ground, comforted by Nick. He didn't say anything about it, about me, he just looked after me, comforting me. I felt his hands rubbing my shoulders as I let streams of tears out. I probably looked really stupid, but he didn't say anything about it, he just got me up and gave me a drop of whiskey. 

"Are you feeling better?" Nick asked me.

"Yeah, thank you" I replied.

I didn't even realise my hands were shaking until they stopped. I was scared, terrified, whatever happened to me just hadn't registered until it was too late, until I'd gotten to Nick's house. I didn't even know how long I'd been held captive for... I was too afraid to ask. My mind wouldn't let me think of anything but Matt. I knew Lena was safe, Caleb would keep her that way, it wasn't as if he was hiding her in Nightshade, a place he didn't actually own, just worked in, he was hiding her in his own place. 

I wasn't ready to face Matt, to face Leo. I had to get there before Leo could, if he'd gone after Lena first, he'd be fought off or be aware that she wasn't there, wasn't anywhere to be found. I was undeniably frightened for her, for the both of them, all I could think about was just how dangerous it was for them both, being dragged into a world they didn't want to be a part of, that one of them didn't even know existed. 

"Jack" Nick called out as he caught up with me.

I hadn't even realised I'd walked out the house, a part of me was still so dazed, confused... very little made sense to me, that which did, suddenly just stopped making sense. Everything seemed to make me dizzy, I couldn't concentrate, think at all. I had no idea why I deserved it, what I'd done to deserve Leo's sickening, aggressive treatment of me, something he was more than happy to give, for free.

"I need your help" I admitted as I held onto him.

"Jack, what is it?"

"I can't do it alone" I said, feeling rather pathetic. 

"You'll never be alone" Nick promised with a slight smile. 

I was glad about that, I loved him so much I was glad he was there, with me. I wanted to look after him as he did me. He held my hand as I bit my lip, even walking down the streets was rather difficult. I was frightened, completely terrified of how Matt would react. I once asked him to kill me if I killed someone, would he do what he promised? Would he kill me? 

I didn't know what I was going to do, how Matt was going to react to me. Panic whipped me like my father's belt once did... I felt so strange, so cold, so scared. I couldn't move, I was that scared but I forced my legs to move, I had to, I couldn't stop... I just couldn't stop.