Turned

Chapter Thirty Seven

I headed home, hoping my absence wouldn't be noted but it was a hope, I knew Matt too well and he knew me too well. He pulled me into the alleyway, glaring furiously at me, I stood there, puzzled and confused as I tried to make sense of it while attempting to shut off my senses so I didn't pick up the smell of bins and urine.

"What?" I asked.

"Where were you?" he questioned.

"What?" I asked again.

"Where the hell were you? I tried to call, I tried to text and there was no answer! What did you do?!"

"What do you mean? Are you okay? Oh no, is Nick okay?"

"We're fine but she isn't"

"Lena?! Where is she?!" I yelled.

"No, no, not Lena, she's fine..." Matt started.

"Then what?!" I shouted hysterically, my eyes beginning to tear up. "What is it?!"

"There was a murder tonight, a young girl about Lena's age... I..."

"So, you automatically assumed I'd done it?! That's lovely!"

"Jack, she was drained of blood, she died... I thought... you were gone, I put two and two together"

"And came out with twenty, I wasn't there" I snapped.

"Okay, so, where were you?" Matt asked.

"At a group for 'Blood Drinkers Anonymous' where we talk about our fucked-up lives as members of the undead, how we try and fight the hunger and guess what, stay till the end, you get free dinner, I left mine for the police to find because I'm a complete and total idiot who didn't suspect his best friend would be asking questions about where I was and what I was doing and who I was eating that night" I replied sarcastically, glaring into his eyes like a monster.

"Don't be dramatic" Matt snapped rudely.

I walked away from him, I wanted to walk back into the house but he grabbed me. I shook him off with a warning. "I have just run to the worst place on earth and from that place to here, without drinking anything, do you really think I want to be interrogated by a friend who should... who should be trusting me, not hating me?"

"I'm not going to apologise for being suspicious!" Matt complained.

"First of all, women aren't my type, secondly, why the hell would I want to kill? I'm fighting what I am... I'm trying to keep the hunters away from our door and you're... you're not helping" I snapped.

"How then?"

"How what?"

"How do you choose? You have a messed-up list, right?"

"Exactly, I'd go for my list first, which right now, has your name on it" I snapped.

"Jack, don't. I just want answers, I want to know you didn't hurt that girl... that you're not..."

"A killer? I'm not"

"But... you will be?"

"Maybe, I hope not but every argument we have, only makes it easier to be a killer"

"You're not going to scare me away, I've heard everything you've had to say, everything you've done or threatened to do and I'm still here, that means I'm not leaving you" Matt snapped.

"I'm not asking you to"

I wasn't trying to scare him or scare him off, I just wanted to let off some steam, I was tired of being angry with him, especially when I knew he was only trying to help, failing miserably at it but still, he tried, he wanted to help, to keep me safe like I wanted to keep him safe but we were both from different worlds now, he was a human, I a vampire and nothing I said was going to justify me trying to change that. I wasn't going to turn him without his permission and I doubted any chances of him giving me his permission to make him into an immortal.

I didn't say a word, I didn't have to, Matt knew I was mad at him as I just ignored him and walked back into the house. I didn't care about what he thought, I just wanted to run, at least from him. 

I walked towards my bedroom, thanking god that Nick was still there, asleep. It felt like a few hours' worth of trouble, yet was only about an hour of running around and screaming at Matt with somethings said that wouldn't be unsaid. I didn't want to leave things the way they were but I had to, Matt would never stop accusing me or at least thinking I was capable of killing humans.

"You okay?" Nick asked, squinting in the darkness.

"I'm fine, are you?" I asked.

"Yeah... you vanished on me?"

"I had to get some air, I'm sorry" I lied.

"Is this about us? Are we moving too fast?"

"No"

"I don't want to make you feel uncomfortable" Nick explained as he sat up.

I sat down and shook my head. "I don't, I just needed some air and... I didn't want to wake you"

"Are you going to tell me that you snore?" he joked.

"Like a bear"

"I doubt it" he whispered as he turned my head.

I turned my body to face him as I held his hand. "I don't need to take it slow, I don't need to rethink it or take a break, I know what I want in my life and who I want in my life... I've never been so sure of... anything before"

"Jack... you're worth the wait if you're not..."

It was my turn to silence him with a kiss, I pulled him close and passionately kissed him, I had to let him know just how I felt, that I didn't want to keep him in the dark about me, about what I was... that I wasn't pushing him away, I was trying to keep him, I wanted to keep him, to love be honest with him, even if my big reveal was going to take time, it was on its way, I wanted to be straight with him, I'd never been so sure of anything in my whole life.

"I don't need to wait, I know what I want" I promised.

"If you're sure, I don't want to rush you"

"You're not" I promised.