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chapter 19

I was gasping for air, clawing at the hands that were holding my neck and my head was spinning. My feet were dangling above the ground, I was looking at the man that just threatened to kill me and trying to figure out what to do. Things weren't looking very well for me and at this rate I really didn't know what was going to happen.

'' B-Before you kill me, can I just ask you something? ''

Mister Hwang's grip on my neck slightly loosened and a ray of hope shined from the horizon. I started catching my breath, instantly deciding that my best option was trying to stall until Baekhyun would show up. I had no idea how I was going to do that for at least half an hour that he needed to get to here, but I was going to have to try.

'' What? '' the psychiatrist asked, looking at me with his shining dark eyes. His smile didn't leave his face ever since he said he was going to kill me.

It took me a few moments to catch my breath, then I opened my mouth and asked: '' Why Chanyeol? ''

Wrong question.

A shadow fell over his features and I instantly knew that I probably shouldn't have asked that. His eyes darkened and his smile slowly faded away before his features distorted in to a frown. The mention of his name seemed to put him in a bad mood and bring feelings of anger and disappointment. '' Ah, Chanyeol... I had such high hopes for him. Taeshik always liked him and I really thought he was going to become his successor. It was so easy gripping his pain and forcing him to turn it in to hatred, but for some kind of reason, he never went through with it. His mother was supposed to be his first target and yet when he was standing in front of her he couldn't go through with it. Instead of shooting her, he started crying, so in the end I had to do it for him. ''

My eyes slowly grew wide with horror. I couldn't believe it. Mister Hwang tried to bring him to kill his own mother.

'' He was always so terrified of being abandoned and left alone, so it was really easy to manipulate that. The orphanage had some bad memories for him and just threatening him to sent him there again was enough to get him to try to kill again. He was really going to kill that former teacher, but then you had to get involved and ruin everything, '' mister Hwang said, slowly starting to get more and more angry.

I buried my nails in to his hands, wrapped around my neck, but he didn't even flinch. Either he didn't notice the pain or it didn't bother him. A drop of blood slid from the wound on the side of my forehead and left a red trail on the side of my face. I was scared, but I still challengingly stared at him and lowly asked: '' What did Chanyeol ever do to deserve this? Just because he was a friendly boy and Taeshik liked him? ''

Mister Hwang scowled and hissed: '' He is where it all started. I was fine until I met him. I forgot about the past, I forgot about everything that happened. Then he walked in to my office and he was exactly like my Taeshik years ago. Same dull and emotionless eyes of a true psychopath. ''

'' You are the only monster here! '' I screamed, unable to contain it anymore.

He chuckled and tilted his head to the side. '' I must say, I was quite impressed when you managed to find the apartment where him and Taeshik were hiding. I was even more surprised when I saw you here, but you should have been more careful. I'm a bit sad that I have to kill you, because you have always been one of my favourite patients and I really enjoyed playing with your head. Back then I nearly got you to kill yourself, didn't I? ''

It was true, in the past he was the voice in my head telling me to take my life. I didn't let him win back then and I was determined to defeat him this time too.

I gritted with my teeth in determination, raised my foot and kicked him in the stomach as hard as I could. The sudden pain made him stumble back and we both ended up falling and rolling down a hill of the cemetery. I raised myself as soon as we reached the bottom, jumped on him and started punching him. He was quick to fight back and we were rolling around on the cold snow, each trying to get the best of the other, until he pulled out a knife and stuck it in my leg.